My One and Only.
My husband died on 22nd Aug 2008. Every now and again I give in to my emotions and I find myself crying. It might be difficult to understand that I loved him very much,but he put me through hell emotionally.
He was an alcoholic who refused to stop drinking.
Towards the end, he would have died quicker if he had stopped because he would have gone into shock.
He never knew that he was dying for his last 2 years,but I did,
He never knew that he had Korsakoff syndrome, but I did. When I went into hospital with breast cancer, I still worried that he would be alright with the home helps. Eventually when I got home, he died 10 days later.
So every now and then, when I feel down, I cry.
I know that he loved me very much but towards the end, he had brain damage.
We were together for 30 years.
I am in good health and have a good job, nice people to work beside,I am grateful for the life I have now,but my heart was broken and I dont think that it will mend for a long time.