My Papa. My Hero.

by Samantha
(Erie Pa )

My Papa was sick with heart disease for about 16 years. On April 13, 2013 he passed away. I'm 15 years old and after three whole months I still cry every night and I got his jacket coat at the funeral and I wear it whenever I start to cry and I usually just cry harder. Anyway I was looking through how to cope with this death and I can't. He was so special to all of us. He had almost every family member stay in his home. Him and my nana took in whoever needed a place to stay, that included my mother, brother and my sister when they were younger; and later on my sister and her newborn son. I thought getting into a relationship shortly after the death would be good but after that ended it made everything worse. I honestly don't know what to do anymore, there's not a day that goes by without a thought or a memory of him. I keep having this one dream that he came back to life and he was perfect and healthy. I've had it about once a week since he died. and it's July now. so yeah that's alot of the same dream. He was a second father to me. I feel bad for the rest of my cousins who weren't as close to him as I was. I read a poem at his funeral that people still talk about today. I hope this wasn't too long, I can't talk to anyone about him anymore because my family is all alcoholics and aren't passed it yet so I have to wait till they're all healed. I'm afraid that'll be too long, thanks for reading. sorry it was so long.

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Jul 09, 2013
My Papa. My Hero.
by: Doreen U.K.

Samantha Your email wasn't too long. You are still hurting and perhaps seeing a grief counsellor may help you through your grief since you don't have any family support.
It is not unusual to dream of your Papa in your dream as being well and alive. I can't tell you I know the answer why this happens but when I lost my husband to cancer 14 months ago I had many dreams night after night that he was well and with no cancer and he was happy. I enjoyed these dreams. They were a comfort to me. I didn't want them to stop coming. They have died down now. But I may get the odd dream now and then. Grief is hard and painful. Express your grief through crying as this is how we all heal. I hope your days ahead get easier and you move through your grief with good support.

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