My Parents are Gone.
My life is currently not going well. I have lost both parents to cancer. First, was my Dad about two years ago, then my Mom. I feel numb still from life and loss. I miss them especially my Mom, everyday. I talk to her and when I see a hummingbird, I know its my Mom saying Hello to me. I always say Hi back. I would like more signs from them and have not witnessed anything major in about a year.
I wonder if it will ever get better and will it ever Not hurt anymore? It still hurts all the time. I have accepted it and miss them, but know they are gone forever. I know that they are in a better place without cancer anymore in their bodies. I am glad that the cancer is gone and they are happy and carefree. I just wish I could hear my Mom's laughter and talk to her on the phone at night.
I pray to my Mom at night and think of her daily. I discuss my life with her and ask for her help and guidance. I can feel her when she visits my life. It is a comforting feeling, like a blanket over me to keep me safe and secure. I don't feel it as often as l would like too, but she does visit once in awhile. I miss them both and still think of them everyday. I love my parents and hope they are watching over me from heaven.