My Precious Daughter Crystal age 25
As I begin to write, the tears are flowing.. next month march 13th, it will be a year that I lost my daughter. She died while awaiting heart/double lung transplant. She was in the hospital 3 months prior while waiting and I stayed with her day and night..
Prior to that 3 months she was doing very well, she had her own apartment, had a boyfriend, and many friends who she inspired.. She was ALWAYS smiling, always happy about her life.. never looked at her life as being difficult. Why does God take someone who really loves their life???? I just don't get it.. I really don't know what to say except Crystal, I love you so much and wish so much you could be here..
The thing I really struggle with is how everyone says she is in a better place.. I was brought up to believe in heaven and I do believe in heaven, but how do we REALLY REALLY KNOW.. if I knew for certain she was happier, then I could rest a little better. I am ashamed that I feel this way because I do believe in God, but I just wish I KNEW for certain. it's called lack of faith I guess.
I think about my daughter EVERY DAY.. the silly things she did, how amazingly strong she was to have to go through what she went through and not really complain too much about it..
Thanks for letting me write this.