My Precious Sadiemae

by Gail

This morning I lost a piece of my heart. My 13 year old miniature schnauzer, Sadiemae started having seizures in May and had to be put on phenobarbital. It worked well for a couple of months, but she started having seizures again and had to be on another medication along with the pheno. She stopped having seizures, but developed heart problems and then had congestive heart failure. It was almost unbearable to see my precious baby go from an active loving companion to a withdrawn and lethargic dog. Only occasionally did I see glimpses of my sweet Sadiemae. I tried it ignore the warning symptoms that she was not going to get better because I couldn't bear the thought of losing her. I held her and told her how much I loved her every chance I got. Last night, she started getting fluid in her lungs even though she was on Lasix and I couldn't bear seeing her suffer anymore. I got up this morning, gave her a warm bath, didn't give her the nasty medicine and took her to the vet. The vet understood how I felt. With tears in his eyes he told me it was the right thing to do. He had been her vet for thirteen years and he understood my pain in letting her go. He tole me that she had had a good life because of me, but it was Sadie who made my life good. I kissed her and told her goodbye and she went to sleep and escaped her pain and suffering. Now I am so sad and miss my baby so much. I just want to hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her. I know that the intense feeling of grief will get better, but I also know that when you love this deeply, there will alway be times of feeling that loss. I now look forward to the day when we can be together again and never be separated. I know she will be there to welcome me home.

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Oct 16, 2013
by: Anne Parr


Oct 14, 2013
Thank you
by: Anne Parr

Thank you for your words...Maisy was my child in a sense...she knew what I was doing before I did most of the time and was constantly at my side. those dogs have a sense and something about them that make them special...I read that the schnauzer is a dog with a human brain, I think a heart also...I still think about her a lot and cry, but then I remember that if I sniffed, sneezed she would get up and give me a look and move to another spot...that makes me laugh because I would do it on purpose just to watch her response.. I want to thank you again and it will get a bit easier, but not for a long time... I have a yorkie that is 2 yrs younger than maisy and she is finally getting back to herself. she misses her sister terribly, maisy is all she ever knew...
Maybe Maisy and Sadiemae have already met across the bridge and are playing and having a great and your family are in my prayers

Oct 14, 2013
Beautiful Sadiemae
by: Diane

It breaks our hearts to have to let our furbabies go....., I believe you helped her to avoid a lot of suffering in your selfless act. I'm so glad you had the time to say goodbye and to tell her you loved her. Please accept my condolences and know there are many of us that will share your grief. It takes a long time to mend a broken heart, but one day you will remember her with smiles instead of tears. RIP beautiful Sadiemae, wait for your mommy at the Rainbow Bridge!

Oct 11, 2013
Thank you
by: Gail

Thank you for understanding my grief. I know my family understands my grief, because they know how much she meant to me. But it takes someone who has experienced those sale feelings of closeness to understand the depth of love that you can have for your dog. She was such a part of my life everyday that I miss her in everything I do. Even when she was in pain and could nearly stand, she would still follow me from room to room just to be near me. I know that as with all grief, it will get easier to bear and I have starting writing about her each night and our life together. Thanks again for your comments. They are really comfort to me. I do want to share my love with another dog in the future because the unconditional love that they can give makes your life complete. I have always had a special love for animals since I was a child and I think that is why Sadie and I were so close. She needed me and I needed her.

Oct 11, 2013
My Precious Sadiemae
by: Doreen UK

Gail I am so sorry for your loss of Sadiemae, She was such a beautiful dog. She has the cutest face almost inviting one into her life which says "Please Love Me" "This is all I ask". You did this Gail for 13 years. Sad to say She was a good age in doggy years. You both loved each other well. You should keep a Sadiemae Journal and write in this as many memories as you can remember of your life with Sadiemae which you will have forever. You both brought each other such Love and Joy. It is going to hurt for some time. I hope in time that you give another dog a home with you that you can continue this cycle of Love and happiness.

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