My princess he used to call me

by Ruaa
(Abudhabi, UAE)

My father died 6 years ago after a 5 years battle with cancer and i still feel like it is yesterday. I was his favorite and he was my first love and my only best friend, like literally, I had no close friends as much as i was close to him. Can't believe that he won't be there in my university graduation or the day i'll get married in. I feel completely lost and vulnerable without him. I miss him and it get worse everyday..
I'm 20 now.

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Dec 15, 2012
My princess he used to call me
by: Doreen U.K.

Ruaa I am sorry for your loss of your dad when you were 14yrs. A tender age for one so young to lose a precious dad from her young life. You are 20yrs now and the pain you say is just as bad today. With every day you live you will be involved in areas like college or university or planning marriage and your father's death will be a constant reminder of the loss that someone is missing from your life and should be there. I feel the same way. When Christmas comes I would have visited my mother, and we would have had family gatherings like everyone else does only to find that there is no one now. I lost my husband of 44yrs. 7 months ago. This will be my first Christmas without him and I am not looking forward to this celebration. There was six of us for dinner on a Saturday. Now there is only me. I have to sit ALONE. eat ALONE. sleep ALONE. I don't have the motivation yet to change things. I know they will change in TIME. But I can't push myself to change yet. I do as much as I can to better each day. But there is only so much a person can do to change their circumstances to make each day a better one.
I like to be surrounded by people so when I am able to rise from where I am just now I will try and get involved in voluntary work. I need to fill my life with new memories now that the ones I WANTED have now gone. You will miss your father for a long long time. My 3 Adult children have lost their father and they look as if they are coping but I guess they will be in the same place as you when memories come that say. DAD SHOULD BE HERE. "I need Him." "I MISS HIM."
You had such an amazing relationship with your father that will leave such a VOID in your life. No one can take the place of a father. EVER. I hope that in life you will HEAL from your loss and that life will be HAPPY again for you.

Dec 15, 2012
Feel for you
by: Anonymous

I can feel for you I lost my dad 14 years ago dec 7th and it syill seems that way to me he had cancer also and my recent grief is i lost my husband oct 30th of brain cancer that spread from the lungs a 2 year battle but i know one day i will get through it

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