My rock, My bestfriend, My hero , My world, My DAD xx
by Lisa Armitage
This is my dad and his celtic top we got made for his funeral and the picture of him the day of his wedding.
My dad had a heart attacks in 2011 he had to have loads of stents fitted in his heart. At the time they told him he had already suffered 3 heart attacks at the time he was having these heart attacks,he though they where very bad teeth ache or muscle pain! He survived them all! The doctors said people who have heart attacks normally pass away with in 2 years : ( my dad spent a very long time after the surgery worrying and thinking he was dieing, he would sit and tell us about what he wanted at his funeral and we would say stop talking like that.Me and my dad where late nighters we would sit up and chat for hours and I would listen and try to give him comfort.The 2 year anniversary come around on the 29 july 2013 we all went out to celebrate that he had got to the 2 years.we had a lovely meal and all the people he cared about was there.11 august 2014 it was around 3am in the morning I had been awake looking on ebay at mobility scooters as my dad was buying cheap ones and doing them up and saleing them on, I come across one that was vary cheap so I got my phone and was about to call my dad as.I new he would still be awake but then I seen the end time on the bid was not soon it was 8 hours away so I thought no I will ring him in the morning, so I turned ebay off and went to sleep. I woke up at around 8 in the morning and checked my phone had a drink and went back to sleep.next thing around 10.30am I am woken up to my phone ringing before the call I can remember something coming to my head like a big flash saying dad.i just new when I seen the phone saying sarah ( my dad's wife) that something was wrong!! my best friend and dad had gone : ( I was angry with my self and still am for not ringing him at 3am when I was going to!!!!if only I did ring him maybe I could of been aware he wasnt feeling well or he had pain, I mite of been able to save him : (. My dad aged 45 at the time died at home in his bed. I went up to his room to say goodbye and gave him a kiss and wished I could wake him up but I couldn't.The police and paramedics where there as my dad died at home they had to come out.We went to visit my dad the next day at the mortuary. He was moved a few days later to the funeral parlor where me and his wife went up and shave him and cut his hair and took his jeans and celtic football top for them to put on him. He loved celtic they where his favorite team. I had to arrange all the funeral and make sure everything was in order I known from previous late night chats how he wanted it. I also tried to make sure his wife was ok and my other siblings. The funeral come around everything went well and I hope he was looking down and thought the same. I haven't grieved im finding it so hard and lately been woken up from dreaming about him. I miss him so so so so much I just dont know how I can get over this. I also come to relise that after 1 month of my father passing away his wife had replaced my dad with a new man who was sleeping in the bed my dad died in: ( this hurt me so bad and still hurts me to this day. What makes it worse was that her new lover had taken pictures of my dad side of the bed and put them on facebook!! This killed me in side so much even since my dad died and I went up stairs to say goodbye I couldnt go back up and to see them really hurt!! Im so angry at her and feel so sad for my dad to have to watch him take over his place in such a short place of time. I love and miss my dad so much words can not even start to described how much I love and wish I could bring him back. This is my first time speaking out this much so I am sorry for the long story. Im sorry for everyone's loss and hope you all find comfort.