My rock, my lover, my friend is gone
(Rocklin, CA )
Today my husband died on 11/5/2013. We were childhood friends and school bus buddies since 4th grade. In high school we double dated, he with his girlfriend and my with my boy friend. We eloped and celebrated our 11 years of marriage last August. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME! He help me deal with the horrible ordeal when my stepfather died when I was 16 and my mother, brothers and I ended up living in a homeless shelter. He became a father figure to my brothers since he was 10 years older than them. When we eloped it was HIS idea and he even planed how we should do it. If I was given the chance to spend a million dollars for a "dream" wedding I would still have eloped the way we did. It was so much fun and it was so US! He got me like no one else ever did. When I was 16 weeks pregnant with my daughter our house burned down. Even though I was watching my house turn to cinder I KNEW we would be fine because we had each other. My daughter has to be delivered by an emergency c-section and he watched my eyes during the whole surgery and kept me calm. I knew again we would survive. He was there through 2 miscarriages never leaving my side. The second miscarriage was very grueling and his love and strength kept me sane. People use to say, "God you guys never fight or argue or anything." I would tell them that is because we have been truly talking and appreciating each other for over 20 years! I have always felt like his queen and my daughter was his princess. He was my rock, my lover and my friend and now he is gone. For the first time in my life I truly feel weak and lost. It breaks my heart to know my daughter only got to share 9 years of her life with him. Today he left with a smile to go to work. He always kissed and hugged us before he left. Then around lunch he slumped in his desk, called the ambulance and died just after he got to the hospital. It was so quick like a candle was just blown out. My rock, my lover, my friend is gone and I can never get him back. I am so heartbroken but yet so thankful to have had him in my life.