My Sister, but so much more than just that...
I am the youngest of 3 kids, my oldest sister was 8 years my senior, she was the one who teached me everything in life, we were very close and shared everything. She was biopolar, in 2009 she got divorced and after meeting a guy got married again, after the divorce she just freaked out, I didn't now my sister anymore, she had horrible moodswings and devastating sadness in her eyes. It felt like I allready lost her, in January 2011 she and het two boys (7 and 5) went to visit my mother, she and her new husband had a fight, and she went into one of her manic stages again. She and my mother also had words and she ran out of the house, 3 houses down a car hit her, she did instantley.... I was the first one my father phoned, my mother didn't even know yet. I drove there, but cannot even remember how I got there, we were not allowed to tell her boys - orders from her ex husband - it was the most horrible time of my life sitting there, looking into their eyes, knowing that she will never come back again, and not being able to comfort them, a week before her death the 3 of them came with me and my husband on holiday, and it was the so special. Her ex husband didn't even let them go to her memorial, and till this day (18 months) I have not seen them. Its heartbreaking, I have tried everything.... My heart is broken, and it feels like I have no one to talk to, I still have my other sister, and we are there for each other, but we don't share the same bond me and my oldest sister shared.... I miss her and the boys so much!