My sister chose her path to end her life
by Mei Inn
I lost my sister a month ago, she's only 35. I witnessed her death right in front of my eyes, where she climbed over the balcony and hanging on the rail, looking at me before she let go. There were some disagreement, talking about family matters and by seeing her climbing over, I thought she just want to challenge or threaten me in a conversation. I left her there, I blamed myself up to today when everyone keep telling me that it is not my fault.
I have read teachings of Buddha, to understand living and death, I have googled all the articles of grief, depression and loss, but till today, it is so hard for me. I miss her greatly and sometimes my heart just ache so much. there are no words to describe my pain. I tried to understand why she chose this path but there will be never an answer to this. She took the truth with her, and we as Living always wonder where we went wrong.