my sister who was more than a sister to me she was my bestfriend
by Alex Bear
(springhill fl. usa)
I was 13 years ole when i lost my older sister. She was 16 years old. I never knew life with out her. She always made every thing okay even when nothing was okay. I was very close to my sister. I don't remember a time when she wasn't their. We always shared a room. She would ditch her friends for me. We never fought. I don't ever remember getting into any fight with my sister. My sister was my best friend. The day i ran away she came with me to make sure i would be okay. The day we ran away was the last time i ever saw my sister. My sister was killed that day. I told my sister to run as my parents picked me up. My sister was killed February 27, 2012. She was screaming for me to run but i froze. I froze and i never saw my sister again. I was sent to the harbors. That really early morning i saw my sister right their next to me telling me it will be okay. She was cold and blue. She was bot my sister. I had night mares every night. I was always so scared. But when ever i felt scared and i couldn't breath i always felt my sister their. Coming home to are room pained me. Seeing her empty bed. I would just sit their and cry. I would just let my self drown in my tears. I couldn't bare seeing the empty chair at the table. I cried my self to sleep every night. My older sister as no longer there. I had to be the older sister to my younger siblings. That scared me. When ever im asked if in the oldest i say yes. But i always feel guilty. Like Kaitlynn would want me to say no. No i had a older sister. I don't decuss Kaitlynn. The people who know me know the truth. But i don't talk about it. I force my self to live knowing that ill never be truly happy. Every day i wake up and i feel Kaitlynn right next to me. Every time i live another day i know its because of my old sister. And crying over the person you loved is okay. Every time i talk about my sister i burn up and i become physically sick. Even to day after its been over 2 years and I'm 15 now i become physically sick. And burn up just like in right now. Rip Kaitlynn Lynn lane January 1, 1996 - February 27, 2012. You were an amazing sister but. A better best friend. I will always miss those bed time stories like i Do right now when its March 30th, 2014 at 2:11 AM and i can't sleep. Rip my sweet angel.