My Son Chris
In 2009 my 25 year old son died with a heart attack. It was a shock to us all we knew he had high blood pressure and high cholesterol but we did not think it would take his life from us. I will never forget the day the cops came to my house and told us about Chris it was the worst day of my life I thought I would die that day for the first few days it was like I could not think or feel anything I was totally devastated by this news of my son. he was my first born child. he had beautiful red hair and freckles and I loved him so much I miss him everyday of my life and every time I see a red headed boy I give him a hug I can't help it I still cry a lot over my Chris I am still heart broken over him its a grief and sadness I can not get past sometimes I feel like if only I could of done more for my son or maybe there something that I could of done different for him oh god this pain is so hard for me I still can't go to his grave site it tears me up I can't deal with it its like I going Thur it all over again I can't handle it some times when I see a read headed boy or young man I think in my mind is that my Chris and then its like no I have to get a grip when it first happened I was thinking I just want to go to that grave yard and pray him out of that grave and bring him home alive like he was before he dided but I know that's not possible. I will never be the same as I was before when my son died a huge part of me died.