My Son Chris

by Tammie

In 2009 my 25 year old son died with a heart attack. It was a shock to us all we knew he had high blood pressure and high cholesterol but we did not think it would take his life from us. I will never forget the day the cops came to my house and told us about Chris it was the worst day of my life I thought I would die that day for the first few days it was like I could not think or feel anything I was totally devastated by this news of my son. he was my first born child. he had beautiful red hair and freckles and I loved him so much I miss him everyday of my life and every time I see a red headed boy I give him a hug I can't help it I still cry a lot over my Chris I am still heart broken over him its a grief and sadness I can not get past sometimes I feel like if only I could of done more for my son or maybe there something that I could of done different for him oh god this pain is so hard for me I still can't go to his grave site it tears me up I can't deal with it its like I going Thur it all over again I can't handle it some times when I see a read headed boy or young man I think in my mind is that my Chris and then its like no I have to get a grip when it first happened I was thinking I just want to go to that grave yard and pray him out of that grave and bring him home alive like he was before he dided but I know that's not possible. I will never be the same as I was before when my son died a huge part of me died.

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Nov 21, 2013
your son Chris
by: christine

It has just been one year that I lost my 38 year old son. He died a sudden death, liver failure. I found him when I got home from work, he had been gone a few hours by then. I had talk to him in the morning after I got to work. At least I got to tell him I loved him. It to is still the hardest thing I am dealing with in my life. He is all I think about. They say in time the pain lessons, just how much time. I do turn to God for strength and for help getting through each day. My family have help me a lot. The church still prays for me. We have many more tears to shed but its all a part of the grieving process, however long that will take. I have no other children and I'm not married. So it does get lonely and lots of time to think. I try to bring up the happy memories, the fun times we had, cooking, singing, hiking and just talking. He was my life and still is. I mean it from the bottom of my broken heart when I say I am so sorry for your lose. God be with you and my prayers.

Nov 20, 2013
Our sons
by: Kate

Our sons loss of life is the loss of ours too. We change and are ripped in a way that can never mend. We go through so many stages ,changes, thoughts and always hurt. I understand you.
We love them forever and want them back. It a nightmare we endure.

Nov 19, 2013
Thank you
by: Ina Lynn

Thank you for sharing your story. Your story lets me know that I'm not crazy. My beautiful son Anthony died 11/1/13 from an illness. I feel as you said that a part of me has also died. Our children are extensions of who we are, they once lived in our bodies. I keep thinking about what I could have done differently to save him. I know that there is nothing but the hundreds of thoughts that run through my mind daily, make me believe different. I feel like I will never be happy again. God bless you. Thank you for letting me knows that I am not alone.

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