My son is gone and I want to be with him
My son Brian took his life 12/1/2011 and I am beyond broken hearted. he was a chef and a wonderful person. He never wanted to hurt anyone but he did when he left his wife 5 years ago.I know they were bitter(ex wife and daughter) and he hated that. He was engaged to a wonderful young woman, but actually his ex wife and daughter were very nice too. He was very well known but had been diagnosed bi polar and just was having trouble coping.He had a series of bad luck and grew more depressed.It was very public as he was very well known. There was a two page article in the paper immediately saying he died of a self inflicted gunshot.
I am having a hard time and some of it comes from a friend who keeps saying "suicide is a very selfish" act. How can people be so mean? I had someone tell me that for him "the pain to stay was greater than the pain to go".
I miss him terribly and I am unsure if I can make it.I pray everyday not to wake up.