MY SON JEREMY TOOK HIS LIFE

by DEBBIE
(BHAM AL,)

MY SON JEREMY JUST TURNED 26 IN MAY THIS YEAR. HE DIED IN JUNE. HE TOOK HIS LIFE FROM BEING DEPRESSED AND DRINKING THAT EARLY MORNING, JUNE 27TH 2010. JEREMY CAME BY THE HOUSE THAT NIGHT AND SAT OUTSIDE WITH ME ON THE STEPS,IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT. WE WERE STARTING OUR VACATION IN THE MORNING FOR 2 WEEKS.

AS WE WERE SITTING OUTSIDE,JEREMY PLAYED THIS SONG FOR ME CALLED DRIVING MOMMA CRAZY, HE SAID THAT SOUNDS LIKE US MOMMA, I LAUGHED AND TOLD HIM IT DID. I SAID SON TAKE CARE OF YOUR BROTHER WHILE WE ARE GONE,PLEASE STAY OUT OF TROUBLE,I DON'T WANT NOTHING BAD TO HAPPEN WHILE WE ARE GONE, HE SMILED AND SAID YES MAME.I GAVE HIM A KISS AND A HUG AND TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM VERY MUCH.LITTLE DID I KNOW THAT WOULD BE MY LAST HUG AND KISS I WOULD EVER GET FROM JEREMY.

HE WENT OUT PARTYING WITH HIS FRIENDS ALL NIGHT TILL EARLY THAT MORNING. I HAD MY CELL PHONE OFF THAT MORNING, WHEN I WOKE UP I TURNED THE PHONE ON, THERE WAS A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY SON SAYING HE WAS SORRY FOR BEING A BAD SON, THAT HE LOVED HIS BROTHER AND ME, THAT I RAISED HIM RIGHT. THAT WAS IT. I CALLED HIM BACK BUT THERE WAS NO ANSWER SO I THOUGHT HE WENT ON TO SLEEP. THIS WAS SUNDAY MORNING.

ABOUT 20 MINUTES AFTER JEREMYS TEXT MESSAGE TO ME THE DOOR BELL RANG, IT WAS TWO POLICEMEN AND A DETECTIVE, THAT ASKED ME WAS I JEREMY'S MOTHER,I THOUGHT HE GOT IN SOME TROUBLE THAT NIGHT, THAT WAS THE REASON THEY WERE THERE,I SAID YES. THEY SAID I AM JUST GOING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING, YOUR SON JEREMY SHOT HIS SELF THIS MORNING, I ASK WAS HE OK AND THEY TOLD ME NO! HE SHOT HIS SELF WITH A 9MM PISTOL IN HIS HEART THAT WAS FATAL.

IT'S BEEN 6 MONTHS, IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY. JEREMY HAD A LITTLE GIRL THAT WAS 7 YEARS OLD, AND WAS GOING THRU A DIVORCE BEING FINAL, AND HAD OTHER WORRIES AHEAD OF HIM. I TOLD HIM IT WOULD GET BETTER, AND THIS TIME NEXT YEAR EVERYTHING WOULD BE BEHIND HIM,I ONLY WISHED HE WOULD HAVE LISTENED TO ME.

ITS NOT GETTING ANY EASIER, THE PAIN IS ALMOST UNBEARABLE, I GO TO HIS GRAVE EVERY OTHER DAY,I KEEP WAITING FOR HIM TO TELL ME IT WAS A BAD DREAM AND I AM GOING TO WAKE UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE,I MISS HIM SO MUCH, CANT WAIT TO BE WITH YOU, LOVE MOMMA

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Oct 06, 2012
My baby boy travis Corr
by: Bev Corr young

Dear Debbie, I to feel your pain and great loss, my son travis, who'd just turned 15in march took his own life on the 10th of may this year, all because of bullies, am so lost with out him, I miss him every, and feel like am living a bad dream, my heart feels for you, much love bev xxxxx

Mar 08, 2011
CRYING FOR YOU!
by: Anonymous

I just lost my niece to suicide. She left behind a 15 year old daughter and 7 year old son. My sister is barely hanging on and can hardly look at me because I remind her so much of her daughter. Our whole family is in agony. We are having her funeral this coming Monday. I do not know what is in store for us but I have never known such pain. Julee and I were very close. She suffered the worst kind of post partum depression and we tried desperately to save her. All of us are wondering what we could have done differently. The guilt is unbearable. Prayers for all of you!

Mar 04, 2011
Sorry for your loss
by: Karen

I know how you feel. I also lost my son Jeremy just over 3 years ago to suicide on Oct. 28, 2007. He was 24 years old and should be turning 28 tomorrow, March 5. I think about him daily. I wish I could turn back the clock and still wish he were here with us. God be with you and your family.

Jan 05, 2011
Forever Pain
by: Anonymous

I say forever pain to you, my friends, because we will forever feel pain with the loss of our child. Mine died by suicide 5 years ago. I would probably not believe your words if you were writing this and I was reading it, but time does change things.

The pain is always there, but the intensity varies and that is a good thing. I cried and heaved until there was nothing left but groaning. You know what I mean. You know the agony; the explosion of pain in your chest. It's so sharp that taking a breath feels impossible at times. What helped me the most came as quite a surprise, totally unexpected.

God encouraged me to journal my feelings to Him, along with writing here, etc. But when I wrote to Him, He answered in my heart. It was unbelievably powerful and effective in the healing process. I began to see things with new eyes and slowly, my heart has been healing. You might give this a try. It can't hurt and nobody can judge your feelings, God won't for sure. But He asked me to be brave and risk sharing with others and so I do. Anyone who writes to me at "impossiblejoy@yahoo.com", I will send you a copy of my journal which is soon to be published. Who knew? God did and He knows what is in store for you too and it gets better. GT

Jan 02, 2011
Your Son
by: Bev

Debbie,

I also know your pain as my son Jonathan just passed away December 10th of this year. He was just 39 years old and has three small children and they give me some comfort. I can't wait for the day I will see him again and get one of his wonderful bear hugs. Just know that you are not alone and we will all get through this together.

God Bless!

Bev

Jan 01, 2011
Loss of a Son
by: Anonymous

Dear Debbie,
I to lost my 36yr.old son (Jerry) to suicide he turned 36 on Aug.7th & hung himself on Sept.20th 2010. There are no words to ease your pain, it's been 3 months and I still cry everyday. I go to the cemetary almost everyday. He was in the process of a divorce he did not want and left 3 boys behind 16yrs. old, 12yrs. old & 10yrs. old.

The pain I feel not only for myself but his boys is at times unbearable. I wish I could believe that time will heal my wound but I do not believe that. The loss of my child is the most unbearable pain I ever felt and I will hurt the rest of my life because he will never be forgotten.

I have found this web site to be helpful keep writing it helps a little, you find there are many of us suffering the same loss. It's a club none of us wanted to become a member of but we were forced to join. God Bless you, Pat

Dec 31, 2010
My Son Joseph
by: Philip

When I read your story I felt your pain, my son died 6 months ago July 7th, he was 30 years old. I have lost all reason to want to breathe, I feel as though my whole inside has been ripped out and now I'm just hanging around to die and be with him.

There is no cure, no program to follow, only inside I know I have to carry on being alive.

I send you my compassion and love

Phil

Dec 31, 2010
The worst kind of pain
by: Donna

Debbie, reading about the loss of your son brought tears to my eyes and I am so sorry you are having to go through this agony. A year ago August I lost my son Kevin he was 37 and my only child. Kevin was divorced and had no children so I don't have any grandchildren.

The death of a child no matter what their age is the worst pain anyone can ever experience. The pain never goes away, you just learn to live with it. My prayers are with you.

Donna

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