My 37 year old son died on January 8th just about a month ago. He had a long history of alcohol abuse and recently had begun to use heroin. He had entered rehab on the day of his death and they sent him to a local ER for assessment. While in the Emergency Room he was found to be in cardiac arrest and was unable to be resuscitated. I have to admit I don't know how I am supposed to feel. I am trying to go back to work (unfortunately I work for the same hospital as where he died) but I can't focus and get so very tired I have to leave and go home. I am trying to manage hour by hour but I think I am expecting too much from myself. Any support would be appreciated.