My Soul Mate & Best Friend
My life certainly changed the morning of December 23rd., 2013, the day my Soul Mate, Best Friend, & Husband passed away in my arms.
He was diagnosed in 2006 with Vascular Dementia, what a thing to learn.
The next 7yrs. of his journey were not bad at times, but very difficult near the end. To slowly lose someone who has been beside you for 43yrs. is devastating. To hear him say one day "I don't know how to say this, but, I am not sure who you are", to say I was hurt beyond belief would be a mild reaction to what I felt. I then re-thought the words he said, and came to realize he may not know who I am, but he feels safe and close to me, that eased up the hurt. I said "who do you think I am?" he said Mom, and I told him if wanted to call me Mom that was just fine. In time I more or less did become his Mom regarding his care.
I will never get over my loss of the most important, and most loved person in my life.
I know I must try to find a purpose in life that will not take his place, or fill my heart, but at least give me something more to do than grieve.