My soul mate, My everything!

by Ann Marie Hughes
(San Jose)

I met my boyfriend 2 1/2 months ago . We talked on the phone for a week and then decided to meet each other so we did and after that we were just inseparable. On November 5 2013 we moved in together. On December 5 2013 he was walking to work called me and told me he made it to work and I never heard back from him and got a call from the hospital. But the time I got there he was gone he had a heart attack. He was only 37. He had just celebrated his birthday in October. Words can't express how much I loved this man and how much he changed my life. I wish things were different or that he could still be with me but only GOD knows why he took him home so early. I cry still at night for him can't still believe hes gone.

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Jan 19, 2014
My best friend
by: Doreen UK

Dear Anonymous I am sorry for your loss of your husband to murder and how alone you must feel after having a baby without the support you needed. You are in such a painful and very difficult place right now. It is the type of death that will crush you and leave you with a complicated and very painful grief. It may be a good idea to see a grief counsellor. With a new baby it is difficult because you can transfer you grief to your baby as babies pick up on different emotions. This may present itself in the baby crying excessively more than normal. Either way a good support structure should benefit you and help you move beyond the point of finding it difficult to find your place in this world. This is how a death affects all of us. We feel so displaced for some time. We will never get our lives back on track ever. It is easier to treat a physical illness than an emotional one caused by grief. WE did not do this to ourselves. it feels as if our world has been blown to pieces and we can't put those pieces back together again. Some of us need help with this. Life has lost its value. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer and I struggle with the loneliness and ALONENESS. I pray to God that He comforts you and gives you His Peace.

Jan 18, 2014
my best friend
by: Anonymous

I can truly understand how you feel my husband was murdered on 12/21/2013 we were together almost 2yrs.. I just had a baby 4/11/13 I have never felt so out of place in this world in my life..

Jan 06, 2014
to my soul mate, my everything!
by: William Kounter

Oh my God. I am so sorry.

I lost my wife almost nine months ago and I still have a lot of trouble. She was sixty and I'm 53, and we have been together over 33 years.

Just know that there is a lot of love, prayers, and sympathy for you from people who really understand what you are going through. This site definitely. helps me

Jan 05, 2014
My soul mate, My everything!
by: Doreen UK

Anne Marie I am so sorry for your loss of your soul mate at such a young age, to a sudden death. It will hurt for many days and months. Grief is such a slow painful process to heal from. But hang in there and get as much support as you can from family and friends to see you through these difficult days ahead. We can go through each day and never know when tragedy will strike and turn our worlds upside down forever. Life is fragile and causes us to become vulnerable to loss and hopelessness for the future. Find a way in time to move forward with your baby and live your life with Joy for having known this man and the happiness he brought your way. Treasure this and HOPE that one day you will find happiness again and a happy life from grief.

Jan 04, 2014
so sad
by: Anonymous

That was certainly shocking news to receive! I read about these sudden heart attacks and they begin to sound like an epidemic. My healthy beautiful husband died earlier this year and now I am trying to figure out what I will do for the remainder of my life. Like this wonderful man you found, mine too was everything to me. We had no idea he was undergoing a heart attack until it was too late. There is no worse pain. My suffering is unbearable as we were best friends for many years. I hold you in my heart and prayers. It will be the hardest thing you ever do.PLEASE RETURN WITH YOUR THOUGHTS AND PROGRESS

Jan 04, 2014
I'm sorry
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry to read your story. I lost my father suddenly, and the shock of it all is almost unbearable. I am almost one year into my grieving, and all I can tell you is be kind to yourself, accept help when you need it, and take it one day at a time. Things will get a bit easier with time. I hope you find some comfort here- you are not alone. Peace, Barb

Jan 04, 2014
by: Lawrence

How incredibly sad, I can feel the pain of your loss.
There is absolutely nothing to say except, as you yourself said “Words cannot express how much I loved this man”
You have joined a web site where all of us have experienced such overwhelming agony of losing the person we loved more than life itself, it is hell on earth, only time makes it easier to get through as believe it or not it will, although I would never have thought it possible to continue living when I lost my cherished wife.
I am in the late evening of my life but you have it all ahead of you, so don’t give up hope, do what your boyfriend would have wanted you to, which is after the tears and grief have become tolerable, start living again and enjoy your beautiful baby.
You will never forget him, he will always be there watching over you.
You are in all our prayers.

Jan 03, 2014
A hug
by: Dina

I am also grieving from the recent loss of a loved one, sometimes it's not words that's needed but a hug. I extended a hug to you and pray god comforts you.

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