My soul mate my husband David
by Aileen Pugh
(Edinburgh Scotland )
I lost my husband 19 months ago he was my life he died aged 57 of lung disease never smoked was the worst day of my life he was my husband & my only friend had 4 children youngest 15 I am still so devastated can't sleep haven't been out the house since he died can't go out without him we did everything together we were married for 36 years I cry everyday for him talk to him ask him to just let me know he's their & ok but nothing I haven't dreamt about him either just writing this is breaking my heart I honestly wished it had been me and not him I'm not a strong person he was we lived for each other & our kids didn't go to pubs or that we were happy in each others company at home apart for when we went holidays I don't know how to get on with my life without him in it miss him so so much don't know what to do ;-(