My soul mate
My mom died from cancer four years ago. I was with her through every part. My father and myself were her caregivers. She went through the various treatments only to have died a month after the last day of radiation. We only had eight days to come to "terms" with her dying before she was gone. Even though I re-live the night she died frequently and still can even feel how I felt when I watched her die, I would't give up that experience for anything. Other then having her back. I have read countless books on what happens when you die, and I whole heartily believe that my mother was my soul mate. Not in the romantic term, but something much stronger. To say she was my best friend doesn't do our relationship justice. I still feel very lost and very lonley. Saying that makes me feel extreme guilt because I have a wonderful husband and very close family, but it's true. I have always been a very strong and grounded person, so of course in terms of work and everyday life I am doing very well. I know she would be extremely proud of me. Saying that, I am still completely heart broken and have an empty void. I would be lying if I didn't say that most days are better after 4 years, but the pain is still there underneath and very real.
Well that about sums it up I guess. Thankyou fore the outlet to vent.