My Special Angel in Heaven

by Lesley Couzens
(South Africa)

It's been 2 years and 4 months, and I still cannot believe Leedon has gone. It's the 3rd Christmas that we as a family will have without him. I am finding it so painful at the moment. I cannot help but cry every time I think of how he so loved Christmas. Leedon would be the one to put on the Christmas hat and hand out the presents from under the tree.

His brothers don't want to take over this tradition, so I do it instead, and it brings back such loving bittersweet memories of his jovial and mischievous self.

I long so much just to look upon his beautiful face and see him smile, just one more time.
My arms ache to hold him close and just to kiss him on his cheek would be a welcome relief from this constant pain. My heart is so heavy and I am so lost without his presence.

My two other sons miss him so much as he was the glue (middle son) that held them together.
This time of year is so hard because it is supposed to be the time for giving, but I don't feel that way at the moment.

I am sure in time, when that will be I don't know, the pain will be easier to bear.
Leedon, I will miss you until the day I take my last breath and then I will be with you again. I love you forever and you will be forever in my heart, never to be forgotten.
Missing your child is the worst pain that any parent has to endure.