My spouse and best friend of 33 years
I lost my husband of 33years on November 17, 2013, the grief knocks the wind out of you. I cannot see how it's going to get better, it just seems the longer time passes that it's that much longer I haven't seen him. I go to a support group as well as a grief counselor every couple of weeks. I don't know what else to do. He was long term dialysis patient. 25+ years, a medical miracle , along with pulmonary hypertension, there was some negligence at the hospital, he went in for simple gall bladder surgery, the surgeon did not do all his homework and he nearly bled to death, he survived that, but then was throwing up bile nonstop, they had him in a regular room where his sugar dropped down to 36, he aspirated and went into cardiac arrest, and at that point they brought him back into ICU, where he should have been all along, and he passed the next day, It's impossible to get some of those visions out of my head. The grief is devastating and impossible. I don't know how to go on.