My Stephanie, Stephen and now my beloved dog, Toby
It has been a while since I have been on the site but Christmas has been a terrible time since losing my lovely daughter Stephanie on September 2011, her Dad two weeks later and my son Stephen in October 1997. Of course last Christmas right after they died was a blur but this year it hit hard. My remaining daughter and I planned a trip to the Bahamas to get away from the usual Christmas festivities.
Then on December 19th the day before our planned vacation, I had to have my little dog Toby put to sleep so now I have a new heartbreak. My little friend of 14 years is gone and the house is so empty without her. I didn’t think the loss of a pet could be so hard but I keep reliving holding her in my arms and watching her go to sleep for the last time. I did not realize that losing a pet is like losing a family member I am feeling really depressed again and feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Just too many losses for me to handle. But of course, I have to be strong but thought it might help to write it all down again.
Trying to look forward to a better year in 2013, I wish the best for all of you and God bless you for your responses to me in the past year. I will say a prayer for everyone.