My Sunshine my only sunshine-Alistar Kyle Moonsamy-24yrs

by Rachael Moonsamy
(Durban, South Africa)


Alistar Kyle Moonsamy, i really believed that on the 04/10/1989 that i gave you life, but the reality of it all is that you had given me life...
My Precious Boy, i only have a picture now, a frozen piece of time, to remind me of how it was when you were here & all mine. i see your smiling eyes each morning when i awake, i talk to you & place a tender kiss upon your lovely handsome face.How much i miss you being here, i really truly cannot say, this aching is deep inside my heart and it never goes away.
Allyboy, i hear it so often that time will heal the pain, but if i’m being honest enough i hope it would remain. I need to feel you constantly Ally just to get me through the day, i love you so very much my son, why did you have to go away?
Death took you away, that really wasn’t fair Ally, it took my one and only sunshine, my future life, my heir .If i could take your place, i would have done so willingly, leaving you my Precious Sunshine to grace this world with your beautiful soul.
It’s so unfair Alistar, you should have been granted many more happy years so that Mummy could watch the rest of your life unfold & in the midst of it all you could have watched me your Mummy grow o so very old. My hope is to see you soon my love & i hope you had no doubt at all that i really truly love you from the bottom of my heart.
Ally, without you & your presence , my true self cannot exist, my heart yearns for your company, your love, your hugs, your laughter, and your kisses, so until i exist on this earth, please remain safely in my heart...
Mummy, Daddy & Shevy miss you & love you so dearly my Sunshine, my only sunshine, you made me happy when skies were grey, although i daily prayed that you should never leave me Ally, that dark day 16/05/2014 came when you did leave me my only sunshine. Ally, i too died with you that day in May.
My heart rejoices every time i hear someone talk so fondly of you because i know that it’s all so true, you made it easy for me to love you Ally & being YOUR mummy was only my pleasure. People keep telling me that i did a fantastic job in raising you, but all credit goes to YOU my son, YOU made the choice to grow into that fine, caring, loving, helpful, God fearing, respectable Gentleman that you turned out to be. If i was given a second chance to be your mummy again I’d be first in the long que of mummies that wished they had a son like you. I know that you would see me, but i would be praying that i would be your first choice. I was blessed to have you in my life and for that i am forever indebted to our Creator . I love you Alistar Kyle Moonsamy, my sunshine on a rainy day...
Love you always...
Mummy

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Oct 06, 2014
Always in our hearts
by: Dudz

Sometimes I still go to the parking lot and think Ali will just show up. That's where we used to have Niknaks and chocolate "So my Mom won't see us" he would whisper mischievously.
My heart goes out to you Sharon, and hope you cherish all the wonderful memories of your son forever.
Lots of love
D

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Oct 06, 2014
A letter of comfort
by: mummy


I’m waiting for You:
Please,Daddy, Mummy & Shevy, don't cry now that I am a sleep,
I know you miss me and the pain is deep
In Jehovah's memory I am secure,
You just need to do your best to endure
Not long now and we will be together
It may seem a long time but it's not forever
The system is old and long in the tooth,
In order to see me again please stay in the truth
Until we meet incessantly pray,
That Jehovah will continue to comfort you each day
When Jehovah's day comes it will not be late,
And In the blink of an eye I will be awake
With a healthy new body able to run for miles,
And every where there'll be nothing but smiles
Here in the new system I'll be asking for you,
Waiting for your face to come into view
And before you get a chance to speak,
I'll plant a big kiss upon your cheek
I know that is a time we all crave,
But until then please be brave
With Jehovah's help you will endure,
He will help you in through that door
Into the new order where we can be together,
Enjoying each other's companionship forever and ever.
Love you lots
Alistar Kyle Moonsamy-Allyboy 04-10-1989- 16-05-2014
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Sep 01, 2014
Your son
by: Kate

Reading again about your son and your love for him. My son was my friend my protector my love my joy and it is SO hard to endure this sorrow daily. I am nearing my second year. My pain is still within my depths constantly but my outside emotions I have more control over now - it hurts the same I just got used to the hurt being a part of me now. It is a hard walk the grief walk. Extremely hard . You are not alone. Our strength can come from God if we ask every day to guide our way. This I do pray. Many names are used for God.....but there is only one true source to help us.

Aug 28, 2014
Precious Son
by: Sandy

My Dear friend, I often think of you and say a little Prayer. Wishing you peace to bring comfort, courage to face the days ahead and loving memories to forever hold in your hearts. May you always be comforted by the outpouring of love surrounding you. The day I heard about Alistars sudden death, I was so so hurt for you. As your boy was such a kind hearted, friendly and loving child. No matter where you see him he would always greet with a with smile. Stay strong Love you lots my friend.....Sandy
A word to help you: The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. -Psalm 34:18

Aug 27, 2014
A Precious Son
by: Sandy Lutchmanan

My Dear friend, I often think of you and say a little Prayer. Wishing you peace to bring comfort, courage to face the days ahead and loving memories to forever hold in your hearts. May you always be comforted by the outpouring of love surrounding you. The day I heard about Alistars sudden death, I was so so hurt for you. As your boy was such a kind hearted, friendly and loving child. No matter where you see him he would always greet with a with smile. Stay strong Love you lots my friend.....Sandy
A word to help you: The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. -Psalm 34:18


Aug 26, 2014
a mothers love
by: heidi

there are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we cant live without but have to let go...Alistar would want you to be happy Rachael and smile again. its impossible to forget a child and the hurt will never go away but knowing ally he would never want to see you not smile... love you always cuz

Aug 25, 2014
My Sunshine....
by: Rachael

Thank you all for taking the time to read my tribute to my precious son. Alistar was not just my only son, my bodyguard, my friend,my live wire,my happy pill, he was the wind beneath my wings... each day gets harder because it's another day to face life without my beautiful boy...

Aug 22, 2014
touched my heart
by: Ronica Anthony

What a lovely poem. It really touched my heart.

Aug 21, 2014
Your son
by: Kate

Your love for you son coming through in poetic writing is a gift showing your love . I understand the loss, I lost my wonderful son too. I don't know how we go on but we do, it is never the same ! My heart goes out to you.

Aug 21, 2014
RIP mummy's sunshine
by: Kerusha

My heart goes out to u and your family. May God comfort you in your time of mourning. Don't no your personally but reading this brought tears to my eyes...I pray God gives you strength an more courage every day

Aug 21, 2014
Beautiful words
by: Gale

I'm so sorry for your loss - how clear it is to me that you cherished your son. Without knowing you or your family, it is still very clear what an amazing mother you were to your beloved son. I read your words and think of losing my only child (Michael at 31). Everything you say is what I feel too. You are an inspiration to me to keep going, live my life and rejoice in knowing that we will see our babies again for eternity. My son passed on June 9, 2014; very difficult journey ahead yet I will prevail. I know Michael would want that for me - peace and love to you
Gale

Aug 21, 2014
Sadly Missed
by: Seema Singh

Alistar was a rose among the thorns and so dearly loved by us all.We feel your pain but just know that we are all here for you when you need us.Our hearts also long to see him and for his laughter to fill us up.I know he is in a better place but watching over us. Heaven has gained an angel.Miss you Ali.

Aug 21, 2014
My Sunshine my only sunshine-Alistar Kyle Moonsamy-24 yrs
by: Jane

Dear Rachael, I have read your letter for your loving son.I only cried. Maybe it sounds unbelieveable, but I could´ve wrote the same words to my Mom. I know your son was so Young and my Mom old, but I am feeling the same way into my heart, because we were so close. Sorry, I don´t know how to help you, but just try to live one day to the other. And I am pretty sure Rachael, one day we all will see our loveones again. He lives now in your heart in a different form and stays always on your side. One day I could smell my Mom (Parfume). That was so wonderful, because I don´t use this Kind of parfume. Rachael, I am feeling with you and pray for you. Maybe it gonna help you to write more letters for your son. I am giving you a big, big hug from Germany.

Aug 20, 2014
wow
by: TAI

What a beautiful way to honor the memory of your son!

he was very handsome and had a nice smile. Thank you for sharing.

I lost my son in Jan. he was 38.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Aug 20, 2014
my eldest nephew Ally
by: patricia moodley

i miss you alot my nephew just wish i could wake up from this bad dream . you knew how to comfort mummy but we trying our best cause we also have to deal with losing you but jehovah will give us that strenght. love and miss you

patricia

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