My Sweet Baby Boy Angel

by Eric
(Long Island, New York)

Hi, My Name is Eric and I just put to sleep my 6 year old Beagle Lab Angel, this past Monday Oct.24th. He was my life. I found Angel 3 months before I was diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer and he saved my life. He was the sweetest most loving dog with not a mean bone in his body. My heart is so broken and the sadness is so heavy.
Almost two weeks ago, Angel woke me up at 2am in the morning with his ears pinned back, breathing heavy and shaking and his Hine legs paralyzed. I rushed him to the Vet emergency 5 minutes from my house to find out he had a compressed disc that he needed emergency surgery. In a hysterical state I okayed the 2 hour surgery. After 4 days in ICU he was able to come home last Friday. He was still paralyzed, incontinent and in pain. I was given 8 different meds for him including 2 pain pills and predisone. By the 3rd nite he was in constant pain, incontinent and just miserable. I like many pet owners had to make the decision on his quality of life and if it was fair to let him suffer the way he was. I just couldn`t let him be in such pain anymore.Even if he did walk again, his life would never be the same. The recovery for this surgery would be 6 to 9 months.I wanted to be selfish and keep him, but I had to be selfless and let him go.
My heart is so broken and the pain is unbearable.I miss him so much and I`m so glad I found this site to share my grief with others who are going through the same pain.I know he is at peace and no longer in pain but its always hardest for the ones still here. He will always be part of me but for right now, I`m devastated. Thanks for letting me share my story.

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Oct 31, 2011
Your sweet angel
by: Anonymous

I just read your testimonial about the loss of your angel. I sit here crying just reading it. I put down 2 sweet dogs years ago and I still miss them, think about the funny things they used to do, and hope that one day I will see them in heaven. Your baby boy was with you for a season in your life and for a very special reason. He comforted you in your difficult times. I do believe you will see his sweet face again. God is good.

Oct 29, 2011
My heart goes out to you
by: Anonymous

I've had to make that heartwrenching decision several times in my life and it is always so very hard to do. I'm so sorry for your loss and completely understand your pain. Keep talking about it and contact your local Humane Society for further help with this process.

Oct 29, 2011
A gift from God...
by: Vickie

Eric, I logged onto the site this morning and I read your story about you baby boy, Angel. I am very sorry for your loss. I lost my youngest daughter a couple yr's ago and so, I know how overwhelming loss can be. As I often say -there really aren't words to describe our hurt, our heart ache. You said that you were in stage four of cancer when you found this wonderful guy- Angel. I am only speaking for myself but maybe Angel was just that-an angel sent to you in your greatest time of need. You said he saved your life. I would like to believe that there are angels among us and I don't know why you had to go through such a horrible situation as you did losing your baby boy. I would like to think that he is still here but possibly it was his time to leave and maybe he was needed some where else. Try and hold onto the years and love that he gave you and the most important thing..that he came to you when you needed someone most. You are here because of his unconditional love. God Bless you. Remember-you are not alone..we are all here to support one another.

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