My Sweet Boy
(Middleboro MA USA)
I just lost my best friend Tigger on Saturday. He was a 13 1/2 year old yellow lab and I had to make the devastating choice of putting him to sleep. I can't eat and I cry all the time. When I close my eyes all I see is his sweet face.
I even forgot to pick my daughter up from school today. Horrible I know. I just can't handle the thought of him not being here anymore. He loved me so much and wanted to be with me all the time. Even at the end, he struggled to stand up and follow me if I left a room. If he couldn't get up he would cry for me.
I feel like I have let him down. Like I gave up on him. I would do anything to have him just one more day. To hold his head in the palms of my hands and to look into his sweet sweet face and stroke his soft ears. There are so many reminders of him in this house and the grief is so overwhelming. Sometimes I feel like I am crazy.