My Sweet Boy

by Stacy
(Middleboro MA USA)

My Angel

My Angel

I just lost my best friend Tigger on Saturday. He was a 13 1/2 year old yellow lab and I had to make the devastating choice of putting him to sleep. I can't eat and I cry all the time. When I close my eyes all I see is his sweet face.

I even forgot to pick my daughter up from school today. Horrible I know. I just can't handle the thought of him not being here anymore. He loved me so much and wanted to be with me all the time. Even at the end, he struggled to stand up and follow me if I left a room. If he couldn't get up he would cry for me.

I feel like I have let him down. Like I gave up on him. I would do anything to have him just one more day. To hold his head in the palms of my hands and to look into his sweet sweet face and stroke his soft ears. There are so many reminders of him in this house and the grief is so overwhelming. Sometimes I feel like I am crazy.

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Aug 25, 2010
Jennifer's Second CHANCE
by: Jen

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand all that you are going through. I am a complete mess. I had to put my 12 1/2 year old golden retriever down yesterday. I can't eat, sleep, think. I have been crying since it happened. I can't believe I will never see him again, rub his head, throw his ball, step over him in the kitchen...I want to move because I can't stand it that everything reminds me of him....

I am so lonely, and I feel like I lost my best friend...I had him cremated so I can be buried with him, do dogs go to heaven? If they do he will definitely go, he was such a great dog, he was so goofy, and I loved him...My heart is so broken right now my life will never be the same.

He had a mast cell sarcoma and I had it removed a year ago, but it came right back 3 times bigger, the vet said he couldn't make it through another surgery and I did not want him to suffer. I woke yesterday morning and he was laying in a pool of blood, he had dug into the necrotic mass on his flank and lost a lot of blood, it would not clot because of the histamine in the tumor.

When I took him to the vet they said it was time, the blood wouldn't clot. They laid him in the grass at the vet and the vet and the vet tech sat with me, then I grabbed Chance by the neck and told him I was so sorry it ended this way and that I loved him. They put the shot in his arm and he just feel asleep in my arms. I have so many doubts, should I have had more surgery, should I have tried harder, should I have asked the vet to give me a shot tooo....I can't express the absolute heartbrokenness I am feeling right now. My life will never be the same.

May 07, 2010
L'il Girls Momma
by: Carol

I, too, had to put my baby to sleep on 4/27/10. I understand how devastating it is and I still cry for her. I miss her so much, she was my best friend. The house is empty and I am so sad. People keep telling me that I will heal in time...I am sorry you have to grieve like this too. I try to thank God for giving her to me for the 15 years I had her. I was a good mommy to my Furbaby, I am sure you were too!

Mar 28, 2010
I Hear You
by: Joe

It is so very tough !!! Spend alot of time reading different parts of this website (and other websites like it). It somewhat helps me. I know how bad it hurts, I'm still there myself. I wish I had the right words to comfort you, but I don't. Try to remember that all the good and great times you had together. Try to smile when you think about him. Only time will ease the pain, and time will go by so slowly. Stay busy. Spend time with people who have been there.
click on this link, maybe it will help
Good Luck To you. We here, know how you feel and we hate it too !!!!

Mar 17, 2010
Angel Above
by: D.U.

Stacey, keep the beautiful memories alive and know in your heart that Tigger had a wonderful life with you. You did the right things don't ever doubt that. He is now up above watching down on you all.

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