My sweet son Dimitri

by Shirley
(Mission Hills, CA)

The dragon was asking for it

The dragon was asking for it

Today is another dreaded anniversary....they come the 9th of every month. It's been 7 months today since my beautiful son Dimitri died of acute myeloid leukemia. For me it will be another day of work. I'll take care of my patients and listen to them as they describe their pain. They will not know that while I'm sitting there listening to them, I will also be feeling my own pain. A pain that is so raw and brutal that it will never resolve.

I wish things could have been different. I wish that my sweet Dimitri could have survived this horrible disease and gone on to marry his beautiful Katrina and had lots of grandchildren for me.

I'll never understand this. Until the day I die, I'll never understand why this happened.
I love you Meems!

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Dec 28, 2011
Dimitri and Dean
by: kay

Hi there again
I know Dean and Dimitri would both have spent xmas with us and our families....I had a sense of Dean being with me.It was my second xmas without my son.It doesnt get any easier at this time of year does it?I am thinking our boys have met and visit us often.Love to you xxxxxxxxxxxx

Jul 05, 2011
our boys
by: Kay

I know your love and thoughts will be of Dimitri this month .....his birthday. I will be thinking of Dimitri too, I hope that he is happy and at peace along with my son Deano on his birthday.I often wonder if they have met? I am hoping so... Dimitri looks like a fun loving beautiful soul. I send you my love and just know you and Dimitri are in my kay

Apr 23, 2011
thinking of you
by: kay

I think of you a lot and thanks for the message...I do hope Dimitri and Dean are up there together celebrating.There seems to be one date or special day after another...birthdays ,xmas,easter,mothers day coming up....and that first anniversary.How do we get through these days...this life now without our children...?Everything is so different.Sending you all my love Shirley.take care xxx

Apr 01, 2011
by: W.E. "Bill" Smith

Dimitri's Mom:

Reading your story, my heart goes out to you. We, too, lost our son to AML in 2005. He was 22. I, like you probably do, ask the question "Why?" Deuteronomy 29:29 states "The secret things belong to the Lord our God". "Why?" is just one of those secret things. I'm convinced we'll find out in time. His time.I've done two things since his death that I hope can give you comfort of some sort, if there is any to be had. We started a foundation for leukemia research and have in 4 funding cycles donated $500,000 to leukemia research worldwide. It is We hope we can find a cure so that other parents won't have to go through what we have. I also wrote a book entitled "LATER" that's available on and It's a story of our journey and hopefully a story of hope and inspiration. Please accept our condolences on your loss and recognize that many offer sympathy but only those that have truly been down that road can realize the sense of loss and the hole we have in our heart every day. God Bless.

Mar 10, 2011
Dimitri's Mom
by: kay

I know how you are feeling, I am so sorry that you have to suffer as I myself do.....for you it is the 9th of each month...for me the 11th..for me it has been 10 months in May. I miss my son so much as you miss Dimitri. They were part of us...Days like these I think I will never ever crawl out of the depths of sorrow and heart ache.I send you my heartfelt love...we are so far apart but bonded by 2 aching hearts..We adored our many mothers out there...who each have their day or days...when it is all too much and seems totally unbelievable that our most treasured children are gone from us. They will always live on within us..deep in our hearts....Whilst we carry on with our lives wearing a the outside world....Taking one step at a time. You are in my thoughts. I send you healing and love . xxxxxxxxxxx

Mar 09, 2011
I hope I can help
by: Elisa Medhus, M.D.

Hey Sweetie, I also lost my son, Erik about a year ago. SInce then, he suddenly started visiting friends and family members. As a physician, this didn't really mesh with my scientific background, so I started reading everything I could about proof of the afterlife, including the quantum physics behind it. SInce then. I've written a blog which now has several thousand members. Erik seems to enjoy visiting (and pranking) many of them and he loves helping to bring deceased loved ones, like you son, to those left behind. I hope you join our loving family to, at the very least, figure out where your son is and how to contact him. If you want, just search for "channeling erik." There are no ads, no ulterior motives, just a journey together in a safe, loving, supportive community.

Mar 09, 2011
Hey Cuz
by: Patricia From Las Vegas

Such a great picture. I could only imagine how that day went. I know ~ I miss Billy too.
1 step, 1 breath at a time ~

Mar 09, 2011
Our Sons
by: Anonymous

I know that feeling well; the 20th of every month is a the day for me, it will be 6 months on the 20th. He lived to marry & have 3 beautiful boys but they don't fill the void left in my heart. No one can ever fill that spot, the memories, the good times or the hard times I had with him throughout his life. I'm beginning to believe this grief will be with me the rest of my life, I just don't know how to get over the loss of my first born & only son.

I never dreamed anything could be this hard, I truly know what a broken heart feels like sometimes I swear I feel only a portion of it beating. May we one day learn to accept our loss & be able to look at a future but I know my son will always be in my heart & on my mind. I pray for inner peace for all of us.

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