My sweetest Mum
Dearest Sweetest Mum,
Ma, we are sorry we let you go just like that. You didn't want the operation, you said you were afraid, you told me not to leave you those few nights. I said I will be back in the morning because brother was taking over the night shifts. There were too many opinions and I just gave in. I am terribly sorry, I should have stayed with you those few nights. I wish I had a stronger mind and character. You kept on saying you did not want the sugery but all the doctors said that was the only option. Even when they mentioned there was risk, we did not realize it was 100 percent risk they were talking about. They gave us heroic examples of their success of older patients and even weaker ones than you. We agreed because we wanted you back in our lives, getting up and walking properly and healthy.
You left us so abruptly, so quickly. You would have lived even now if not for the operation, if not for that fall when you broke you feeble bones. You couldn't withstand it Ma.... I am so sorry....I feel so miserable...I can not get over the pain of your departure.... to realize that you are no longer with us. Lord forgive me. Promise me she is there on Your right hand side and very happy. Promise me she is enjoying the glory of Your kingdom with my father and all her beloved ones who have gone before her to be with you. Ma, forgive us all for all wrongs we have done. We love you so much. I just adore you, my dearest mum. Forgive me especially because you wanted to come home with me and I couldn't bring you home. You now know the reasons and my limitations. You were with your son who took care of you. Mummy thank you for being my mum. I always love you.