My sweetest Mum

by annie
(kerala, India)

Dearest Sweetest Mum,
Ma, we are sorry we let you go just like that. You didn't want the operation, you said you were afraid, you told me not to leave you those few nights. I said I will be back in the morning because brother was taking over the night shifts. There were too many opinions and I just gave in. I am terribly sorry, I should have stayed with you those few nights. I wish I had a stronger mind and character. You kept on saying you did not want the sugery but all the doctors said that was the only option. Even when they mentioned there was risk, we did not realize it was 100 percent risk they were talking about. They gave us heroic examples of their success of older patients and even weaker ones than you. We agreed because we wanted you back in our lives, getting up and walking properly and healthy.
You left us so abruptly, so quickly. You would have lived even now if not for the operation, if not for that fall when you broke you feeble bones. You couldn't withstand it Ma.... I am so sorry....I feel so miserable...I can not get over the pain of your departure.... to realize that you are no longer with us. Lord forgive me. Promise me she is there on Your right hand side and very happy. Promise me she is enjoying the glory of Your kingdom with my father and all her beloved ones who have gone before her to be with you. Ma, forgive us all for all wrongs we have done. We love you so much. I just adore you, my dearest mum. Forgive me especially because you wanted to come home with me and I couldn't bring you home. You now know the reasons and my limitations. You were with your son who took care of you. Mummy thank you for being my mum. I always love you.

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Mar 05, 2013
My sweetest Mum
by: Doreen U.K.

Annie I am sorry for your loss of your mom. Often in life we make a decision and hope it will be the right one. If it isn't we start beating ourselves up for making it when our decision turned out wrong. BUT WHAT IF? It was the right decision and you didn't take it? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL THEN? If your mother had a better chance not having the operation I am sure you all as a family would weigh up that she would live without the operation and you would have not let it happen. But if your mother would have died without this operation then you made the right decision for HER BEST INTEREST. Some people have cancer and end up dying of something else like flu or pneumonia. some people go in for a routine operation and never come out. There is so much risk in life every day often we have to make such hard decisions and it is a very difficult place to be a lot of the time. Loss is Painful and hard a road to trudge daily. It wears us out. A mother is a treasured gift from God to the world. She embraces her children and loves them with utter unconditional love and then she has done her job here on earth and then leaves her children to carry on the immense job or rearing their children to keep the cycle of life on going. I have to process how my 3 Adult children will feel when I leave this world. they have to go through the same stages of grief as we are in. And yet we can't prepare them for it. It wouldn't be fair to rob them of the joy of just living. that is what you all her children must do now. Carry on the cycle of life and carry on with the joy of living with the memories of a mother who gave you the nurturing you will now use to get you through this grief and hard days ahead. You will get your life back in time. But for now May God comfort you all in your sorrow and loss of a beloved mother.

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