my true love M.A

by k

I only just lost my true love last week :( the pain in my heart is unbearable and the rest of my body is hurting to the point where I find it hard to simply stand up. I have two children under ten, which have moved on physically (which I'm happy about) but makes it so much harder for me to express my pain when around them. I don't like to admit it but, it annoys me when they are loud and playful, when I really need to make animalistic noises, but have to hold it in, to allow them to be happy. Oh the pain, the sadness, such sadness. It feels like it will never leave. I'm sure in time it will dissipate, but still be there. I am just so sad he was my true love, I never thought we wouldn't be together. Its so hard to be around the kids, because I want allow them to be happy and playful, but the sadness.......