My True Love, My Soulmate

by Yulduz

My beloved husband and I were married only four years. It is so short for the couple who loved each other so dearly, so tremendously... My husband and I had very beautiful, but very tragic love story. It was so beautiful because we met each other from different parts of the world. He was an American man from Texas and I came from Uzbekistan, the country located at the territory of former Soviet Union. We fell in love with each other so deeply and despite any differences in our culture, in our traditions and lifestyles, we did everything together and our hearts were beating for each other, we both became as one person, as one soul for each other. The tragic part of our love story and our marriage was his cancer, Hodgkin's Lymphoma Cancer. He was diagnosed with cancer back in 2004, three years before we met each other and he went through a lots of chemo treatments. His doctor told him that he was cured from cancer, and then that time he and I met each other. His cancer came back one year after our wedding. We both had been blessed by God, the Lord gave us a beautiful child, the boy with beautiful big blue eyes. We both were so happy, but our happiness was darkened suddenly by he bad news - his cancer came back. My husband and I were fighting that freaking cancer for three years, we were desperately asking God to give him a total recovery and remission, but God made his own decision - my husband passed away on December 7 2011. I missing my husband so tremendously, I do not know how I am going to move on in this life, how I am going to live every single day without my husband, he is so irreplaceable to my heart. He meant more than everything to me, more than the whole Universe... I love only my husband and I can not live without him at all.

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May 03, 2013
Just lost my soul mate
by: Anonymous

I just lost my love and soul mate of 28 years
He died suddenly from a heart attack. I found
Him in his desk chair when I got home from work

Reading all your stories is helping me
I know he is safe and happy now. But l
Miss him so much. I have my step children
and friends. Thank God. Just have to keep busy
Realize we are on this earth for a reason and
Just go forward with your life the way your soul
Mate would have wanted you too. I am trying
To do that. Make him proud

Sep 19, 2012
losing a soul mate
by: Aannettenonymous

I know how you feel my partner and I were together for 24 years in may 2011 he was diagnosed with a brain tumour and stage 4 lung cancer within 4 months he died it is coming up to the 1st anniversary on the 27th september and it has been the hardest year in my life and I know that all I can do is take things day by day its going to take me a long time but I am strong and I want to live for him as much as for me and for our children.

Apr 09, 2012
your child
by: christle

I can understand your suffering as losing someone we love can be very painful, but you have your son...just look into his just like looking to your husband face. Whatever love you have for him I know it will never go away, and you can give all the love for your son.

Jan 15, 2012
Grieving Widower
by: Tony

I am so sorry Yulduz and Kim. I am barely a month from losing the love, the soul mate of my life to cancer, so I know from my experience what you're both going thru.

I recommend keeping active with family and friends because it's a distraction from thinking about it and hurting somewhat. It is sure not a 'replacement' but I think it helps a little and we can use all the help we can get.

Also I recommend keeping yourself in good health - very important! My beloved soul mate and I were married 38 years and she became my very life. Everyone seems to say that in time the pain will lessen.

Kim I know you're in shock but your husband died a very quick death and it must be terribly stunning. Try and think to yourself that it was his time to go. That's what some have told me

Jan 02, 2012
by: Kim

Hi Yulduz, I am very sorry to hear of your loss. I wish I could tell you there is an easier way to get through this but unfortunately there isn't. On July 16,2011 I came downstairs. To find the love of my life, and my soulmate had passed away in his sleep on the couch from a massive heart attack. I have two beautiful children, my daughter is 22 and my son is 17 and I have a beautiful grandson that just turned one. My husband was only 48 and I'm only 37. Like you at first I thought the same thing, how can I live without him? He is my best friend and my true love? Since then I've had to go through some major events without him also. Our 18 wedding anniversary, my daughters birthday and her wedding and then of course the holidays. During those times I thought I would never make it through them without him. Let me tell you that it was very hard but I'm still here and my heart still aches for him everyday but I know he's with our Lord and he's being taken good care of. You have that beautiful baby still that is part of your husband and your very lucky for that. Through him your husband will always live and be with you. You just need to take each day one at a time as they come and pray and know your husband is healthy and strong in heaven and waiting for you. I help take care of my grandson everyday and I thank God for that blessing. He helps keep my mind busy and and I feel like my husband is up there in heaven telling God to look over us everyday. With time the pain won't go away but it will get a little easier is what everyone tells me, I hope they are right. Please hang in there and pray often for God to give you strength to get through this all. I have had some prayers answered already and that helps me get through my days when all I want to do is cry. If you ever want to talk more personally you can email me at So far some people on this site have been Very nice and helpful and understanding. I wish you and your baby alot of health and happiness. Another thing is don't let anyone make you feel bad about grieving. There is no time limit and no wrong way. Do what you have to to take care of you and your son. Some people say horrible things because they just don't understand but I'm sure they mean well. You're the one going through it and you do what you have to to get you through these tough days and months. I will pray for you tonight when I say all my prayers. God bless you and your son:) Take care now, Kim.

Dec 31, 2011
Strentgh to You
by: Judith in Californiaj

Yulduz, you will live on for that beautiful child the both of you made and love. You will get through this one day, one breath at a time. You will be strong for that child and for the memory of your husband. Yu may not always feel him there but he and God will watch and see that you reach the other side of this horrible journey you must make.

We who have gone to widowhood before you know how hard a road it is. Some of us are still on that road. I for one. Please come here often and read all the letters of us who have gone through the first days and months and years with out our loves. You will find we are a caring lot and are here for you as well.

Please keep your faith and HE will see you through it.

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