My true love

by Ron
(UK)

My true love for 36 years fell asleep in hospital with complete organ failure on the 3rd November 2010 her loss has greatly effected me since her parting, she was the one that stole my heart I cannot get out of my mind the reason of my existence for being left behind. I have tried to commit suicide once before just after her death which I am not proud of, however that was not meant to be. I feel I have let her down in some way but the pain is so unbearable I am back to where I was when she first left me alone to face this blank emptyness around me. I love you Darling forever

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Sep 28, 2012
True Love
by: Ron

Thank you Silvia for sharing with me your hurt, unsure if like me my one regret was not saying goodbye to my wife while she was with us as we shared everything life through at us. People that we new stop me and still ask after her as we never went anywhere without each other, it’s very hard wondering what’s ahead of us. Take care. Ron

Sep 26, 2012
my true love
by: silver

My husband also died from organ failure. He had emphysema and his lung power was down to 40%.He go pneumonia and ended up on a respirator in ICU. He was on several antibiotics.Then (a man who took 4 meds to keep his high blood pressure under control) he had to have 4 meds to keep his blood pressure up to a safe level. Then his kidneys failed. They tried dialysis (the kind that goes slow over 24 hours).The dialysis began to kill his heart so they had to take him off.This of course meant that his body had no way to get rid of it's poisens. As a nurse I knew that he only had a couple of days left to live unless a miracle occurred.Now I know that the miracle was that he died so easy.I was assured he was in no pain in the end. Since I have been on this site I read about many people who were blessed enough to have met,married and love their soul mate. GOD bless you and give you strength

Sep 24, 2012
True Love
by: Ron

I thank you all for your wonderful comments left here on this page in respect to my late wife, I know this is going to be a very bad time as its only been two years this November since her departure and the hurt and pain has not disappeared like so many others keep telling me. I have travelled the World in the British Merchant Navy, seen many disturbing sights but none such as watching the love of your life just slip away never to return. I wish you all happier times ahead good luck God Bless you all.
Ron

Sep 19, 2012
My true love
by: silver

like you I had many yrs with my true love. we were friends for 4 yrs then married for 33.he died one wk after our 33rd anniversary.Although I didn't try to commit suicide one of my son's did about 2 wks after. Luckily,it didn't happen. I had already lost my mom,dad,best friend of 28 yrs and my husband in 18 months. I screamed at him that I didn't want to bury a child also.Later he said he was sorry and swore he would never put me through that again. I can understand how grief gets that far because I felt like my world had ended.I felt like I should die also.I am very religious and my faith in GOD is the strongest reason I am still here. this site has helped me a lot especially since I see so many people with the same feelings I have. Try out the poetry site and see some of the beautiful poems. In the meantime,GOD bless you and give you strength

Sep 18, 2012
My true Love
by: Doreen U.K.

Ron I am sorry for your loss. It is not easy having spent so many years with someone and then to lose them. IT HURTS. We do wonder how we will go on. Our EXISTENCE is threatened. We don't want to live anymore. When we try to end our lives what we are doing is trying to END OUR PAIN. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer
4 1/2 months ago. I feel the same way you do. What is the purpose for going on in life when we have lost the only one that we cared for and who was an integral part of our very existence. Life is very fragile for us now. Trying to forge out some sort of life if we can call it that. WE are just existing. It will take us all some time to get back into the Life we have got left. How we live it will depend on the people that surround us. We all find that someone special in life and Hope it will last FOREVER. Death takes this away and we will wonder where we go from here. None of us knows. We just go through the motions each day and do it all over again till this changes. When we have grieved it is only then we can move forward. I feel as if the world has ended. But it hasn't. I am waiting for Jesus to come back to earth for us as he promised, so that we can be reunited with him FOREVER. In this new world there will be no more DEATH, SORROW, ANGER, FEAR, GRIEF, LOSS, all this will pass away, and we will see our loved ones again. Jesus promised this. I claim this promise. I wait patiently. This is the BLESSED HOPE. Without this I couldn't go on another day. BE BLESSED TODAY AND ALWAYS!!!!

Sep 16, 2012
Hope
by: Linda

Yes, I can understand your desire not to go on living. I had never felt that way before my husband passed away. The blank emptiness, the pain, the fear is awful. If God were to take me now, I'd be happy. But I also tell myself that the pain won't last forever. I have been left behind for a reason. There is hope. There is purpose. I have faith that after time passes, I'll feel better and carry on with strength. I wish you the best on your grief journey.

Sep 16, 2012
Hope
by: Linda

Yes, I can understand your desire not to go on living. I had never felt that way before my husband passed away. The blank emptiness, the pain, the fear is awful. If God were to take me now, I'd be happy. But I also tell myself that the pain won't last forever. I have been left behind for a reason. There is hope. There is purpose. I have faith that after time passes, I'll feel better and carry on with strength. I wish you the best on your grief journey.

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