My True Love...Ronnie Lee Underown

by Tammy Underdown
(York, SC)

My Ronnie and our beautiful daughter Renee

My Ronnie and our beautiful daughter Renee

Ronnie was my life, my world, my everything!!! I have so much to deal with and it is overwhelming me. I know that I am not the only person that has ever dealt with this, but right now I feel like I am incomplete without him by my side. We did everything as a couple...we cleaned house , we worked, we fished, we were inseparable, and I don't know how I am going to cope with not having my best friend by my side.

I feel like running and screaming sometimes... if I knew it would help, I probably would, but I know my life will never be the same without Ronnie. I am just trying to figure out what I am supposed to do and how I am going to be able to go on. I know if Ronnie was with me now ( which he is in my heart) he would tell me " Don't worry, Be happy". I know Ronnie is with the Lord and rejoice for him.

I heard beautiful choir music float over his hospital bed the day he passed away and then the music drifted away and there was no music in the ICU. That was God's way of letting me know he was with him and I take comfort in that. But what about me, I am the one who is left with the sorrow and pain of not having my soulmate by my side. I hope I don't sound selfish. I just loved him so much and feel kind of deserted.

I am looking forward to being with him again someday and I want my Ronnie to be the first person I see outside those pearly gates waiting for me! The truth is I am excited and can't wait!!! I love you, Ronnie and miss you so much!

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Jul 14, 2011
Thank You All for keeping me strong!
by: Tammy Underdown

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. Trish and Renee I love you both dearly, its friends like you that keeps me strong even though its been more than a year and a half I still haven't gotten used to being by myself but I am trying really hard to make a life on my own. Not by choice but because that's what I have to do. I don't think I could ever have the life I had before with Ronnie. I miss him so much...the love, the laughter, the conversations all of it. But God gave him to me for 28 years and I am thankful for every minute of it!!! I would do it all over again.

Oct 02, 2010
Two Best Men In My Life
by: Trish

I have a best bud her name is Tammy she has been my best bud for a very long time we have shared a lot of things two good friends really share we have our secrets. our great memories of all the good times we had. She is a wonderful person I know why Ronnie loved her so much, and why is loved him. They stayed together thought the good and bad times but their love carried them and she knows that but now he is gone from her life but will always still be there for her, We don't never understand way God takes our loved ones but he does he has his reasons and we are left behind to try and pick up the pieces and really don't know what to do and what we are supposed to do. We go on that is what the people we loved so much would want us to do please keep her strong show her the way and for the others that have lost the ones we love. It gets easy sometimes but we never forget we just have to try and remember the good times the love we had with the ones we loved so dearly its hared still to this day i cry i get anger i ask why why I know my soulmate my love my life loved me and i hope he knew that i loved him. He was a great man a great dad a great person i miss u so. Its been five years but it seems like yesterday sometimes i c his face his smile he was the most handsome man to me he loved me he never put me down he loved my children why god took these good men i don't know but i do know that they would want us to go on be a mother be happy for me be a great maw maw i just with my grand children could have had time with their paw paw they would have loved him so just like he would love them. My daughter has been very strong she had to grow up she loved him so but she knows that her dad would want her to go on he is so proud of her he sees I am very proud of her too. We both have bad days still I try to do what i can sometimes i feel like its never enough. We also lost my father a year after this and he was a great dad a great man a great paw paw they are together now looking down on us sorry i just starting typing this is how i feel my friend Tammy said this helped her I am so glad that she got to spend all the years she did with Ronnie I just wish that i could have done that with Charlie I wonder how my life would be now i to know one thing it would be great Tammy if u read this I am so sorry because i know u hurt cause u did have all that time now it is gone but please remember u had a true love and a true relationship with the man u loved so much God will show u the way and what to do I love u deary thanks for being my friend I will pray for u every nite. He sees u he does he is there he is well i feel a little better a lot of us don't know how short life can be or when someone u love so much is taken please who ever reads this love live be happy love the ones around u you never know.I love you Tammy Underdown u are my best bud.

Feb 23, 2010
by: Chrissy

I lost my soulmate too.
Even though we'd been together for only three years, we had such a special bond. We were unseparable and were like we were made for eachother.

His birthday was 14 Feb and he passed on the 16th of Feb.

He told me once no matter what, that he will always be there for me and always love me.

When I'm down and in the pits I can see him smiling or hear him helping me out.

I as well feel his prescence when I need him most.

And just like you I can't wait to meet him at heaven's gate now!

It's not goodbye, but see you soon. That's what I put my hope on now.

We weren't married but we shared a special bond no one could break.

Miss him telling me a 100 times a day that he loves me.

I love you Joe! Always do! My love of my life!

Feb 20, 2010
Praying for you
by: renee lewis

I know it's difficult and you don't understand, you get angry with yourself, angry with him for leaving and even angry with God for taking him....I know I did and still at times, I still get angry with Greg for leaving and it's been 3 years. The only thing that really gives me comfort is I know God doesn't make mistakes. I know he loves me and I know when I feel all by myself that is when I pray the most, cause I know this is when God is carrying me, and this is also when I feel Greg with his hand on my shoulder. Just keep your faith, pray and talk, I think that is the best therapy.

Feb 02, 2010
by: Anonymous




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