My True Love...Ronnie Lee Underown
by Tammy Underdown
My Ronnie and our beautiful daughter Renee
Ronnie was my life, my world, my everything!!! I have so much to deal with and it is overwhelming me. I know that I am not the only person that has ever dealt with this, but right now I feel like I am incomplete without him by my side. We did everything as a couple...we cleaned house , we worked, we fished, we were inseparable, and I don't know how I am going to cope with not having my best friend by my side.
I feel like running and screaming sometimes... if I knew it would help, I probably would, but I know my life will never be the same without Ronnie. I am just trying to figure out what I am supposed to do and how I am going to be able to go on. I know if Ronnie was with me now ( which he is in my heart) he would tell me " Don't worry, Be happy". I know Ronnie is with the Lord and rejoice for him.
I heard beautiful choir music float over his hospital bed the day he passed away and then the music drifted away and there was no music in the ICU. That was God's way of letting me know he was with him and I take comfort in that. But what about me, I am the one who is left with the sorrow and pain of not having my soulmate by my side. I hope I don't sound selfish. I just loved him so much and feel kind of deserted.
I am looking forward to being with him again someday and I want my Ronnie to be the first person I see outside those pearly gates waiting for me! The truth is I am excited and can't wait!!! I love you, Ronnie and miss you so much!