My very special Derek.
by Stacie Witt
(Green Bay, WI, USA)
Derek Benton (I love you more!)
On January 3rd of this year, I lost my oldest son Derek. He was vacationing with friends in Colorado and died from an accidental fall. He was my oldest child. We had a very unique bond,one that I have never felt with anyone else in my life. He was my biggest supporter and protector. He was in his second year of college and was doing very well. He called me at least 3 times a week to check in and we text-ed daily. He was so caring and loving. I can still feel his hugs. This may not sound normal to most, but I feel him all around me. I find myself running forward trying to find any signs that I will get to be with him again. He did come to me in my dreams not even a week after he passed. He told me he loved me, he was okay and that I'd see him again. I have held on to this with all of my heart. I could not go on if I thought this was the end for us. He had a girlfriend for 5 years and they were so happy. She is like a daughter to me so this is even more difficult because she wants to be around me, which I love, but makes me miss him even more. He has a brother with whom he referred to as his best friend even though they are 3 years apart in age. He has a younger sister who loved him dearly as well, even though he was always offering her advice whether she wanted it or not. I don't know why I chose to type my story. I just really miss him and each day I think I doing so well, the next I could just crumble and go away.