My wife left me after 5 years
(San Jose CA)
Hi Everyone. I never thought in my life that I would be sharing my experience with random people on the net, but I can't hold it in anymore.
First of all, I'm 30 yrs old, and I'm from London, England. I moved to California 9 years ago. For 6 years, I have known the most beautiful, softest and sweetest person in my whole life. I thought she was the one. We loved each other so much and thought everything was perfect. We met at 24 and now we both just hit 30.
Once she turned 30, she has become a "different" person. She all of a sudden hates her job after 11 yrs, she hates our living situation. She hates my financial situation (even thought I make around 60k a year) she hates that we have tried for 2 years to have kids, and nothing is working. She hates that she doesn't own a house (even though we made goals to save 2k a month, and are saving for a down payment?) I just don't know what was going on with her.
I have a little family construction business that has become established, and we are making consistent income every month. But she says it isn't enough. Her friends all have husbands who are regional managers for big companies, engineers, financial advisors, e.t.c.
I think she may be embarrassed of me.
I went to the gym for 8 years of my life, so my body was in shape, and the past 2 years, I haven't been going, so I've gained 40 pounds. So has she.
She just became bitter about everything in life.
She told me she doesn't want to be with me anymore, and she wants to try something different in life. I was crushed. Very very crushed. Here's the woman of my dreams, and now she hates me and is leaving me.
I don't drink, do drugs, or anything. I don't cheat, and never have. I'm so confused!
I love her so much that I let her go. Her happiness is far more important than my own. I wouldn't even mind living in a shared house with 10 people, and have nothing in life, just to see her happy again.
The pain is so hard to take in, that I don't know what to do anymore. I don't believe in hurting myself...but I keep getting these thoughts that are creeping into my mind, that seem like the only way out.
Is anyone else experiencing this?