My wife my best friend my true love

by mark cline
(sodus ny usa)

May 30th, 2006, started out like every other day, but would end up a day i would never forget. My wife of 21 years died that day suddenly. Out of the blue, all our plans for life together ended. She was a lady that loved life, loved people, and most of all loved me with all her heart. As i loved her with all my heart.

For months i tried to understand why she died. No answers. Every day i think about her and what if she was still alive, what our lives would be like. I miss that smile ,that laugh. Most of all i miss her. She was a beautiful lady inside and out. We had so much to do. So much life to live. Just five months before she died, i asked her to marry me again. I asked her in paris france. She was so happy. Gave her another ring. The pain i live with will never go away. Knowing she is dead, gone forever.

I never thought i would ever find another. Being alone was killing me. I had to date again. After 21 years, I felt as if i was cheating. But one day, I remembered something she said. "If any thing happens to me, i want you to go on." I am alive and i had to go on. That is what she would want. And if i had died i would want her to go on.

I did find another lady that is good. She can't replace my first wife. No one can replace another. Some days are hard. Some better. But life, as hard as it is without the other, goes on.