My wonderful father in law
I have been through alot of bereavement in my life my younger brother accidentally was hung in school at the age of 13 (he was buried in his confirmation suit he was a week away from making it). Four years later my dad died of a massive heart attack , we had to break into the bathroom to get to him he was only 50 I was 22 at the time . I never really felt I was able to grieve properly as I did not want to upset my mum .
I am now 50 and my father in law passed away last year he was 88 Years of age but a very healthy active man . Again we had to break into the house to find him . I absolutely loved this man and we had a fantastic relationship . I took him shopping and we would be in contact at least twice a week . I find his death so hard to get over and my mum has accused me of been more upset about his death than I was for my brother or dad . I do feel very guilty about this but can't help my feelings . I feel very low at the moment and am finding it harder to get on with my life .???