by Dani

My nanny died today. She is the most gifted and spiritual women I know. She held me up through times I thought I couldnt even cope. She was my best friend like no other. I'm trying to stay strong for my mum, dad, sister and uncle, but really my heart aches, I cannot describe the hurt I feel. My nanny was given a choice, to stop her medication and die, or continue and possibly live. She decided in her own mind that she didn't want to go on any longer. She told me and my sister before she died that she wanted to see her "Kev", her husband who died 18 years prior and with that I knew she couldn't have held on any longer. Me and my sister had left the room for all of 5 minutes to get some air and she had passed no more than seconds before we went back into the room, in my heart I think she wanted to spare us from seeing her depart and for that I am grateful. I hope wherever she is now she found her Kev and that she will forever hold a piece of my heart. I hope the pain I feel eases but in the same sense never leaves either because I would never want to forget her. I miss you nanny.

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Aug 19, 2012
by: Doreen U.K.

Dani the pain of your loss of your Nanny will pass in time. You have to go through the process of grief. don't try to be strong for your dad, mom, or sister. You have to be naturally yourself and let your grief go. If this means crying then cry. A great deal of grief is crying. This is how we heal from a loss. Your mom, dad, and sister won't think any worse of you for expressing your grief. Don't let anyone tell you to get over it. You will recover when you are ready even if it takes years. Grief is a process we all go through when we lose someone. All it says is that you loved that person so much and you can't bear the pain this loss has left you with. It is the most painfull experience we will ever go through, to lose someone from our lives. give yourself the time and space to recover.

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