Nearly two years

by Jen
(N Ireland)

Hello everyone,

Its two years on the 18 Dec since i lost what was my life and best friend. We met when i was 18 yrs and we married when i was 21 and he was 24.
Altho now just turned 40, I was fortunate to be with him and share his life for 20 yrs. And what love and fun we had in that time. Two lovely girls (well most of the time when their hormones arent raging)now 17 and 15.

I miss him so much but my life is continuing albeit with my now new identity but i will survive this......I want to.

Richard made the most of each and every day even in the depths of his illness with cancer and i am determined to survive in what ever way i can as he would want me too.. tough and all as it is...

Best wishes


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Dec 12, 2010
by: Zoe

I hope the different scenery works
It's funny I was thinking I would go to London if I got through this year it was a place John wanted to go and take me.

He said there was a good feel there
I hope you are surrounded in good feelings
Keep writing

Dec 10, 2010
Try so hard to believe...


I know how hard it is to get through their birthday, your birthday and with Christmas being just weeks away it seems to make it doubly hard.

So here's wishing you just a spark of joy here and there. The joys of a simple sort like people watching. Try not to focus on what is gone though I know it is soooooo hard. I too struggle through this blue period. But I am thinking of you and wishing you well.

Dec 10, 2010
Putting one foot in front of the other vs/ mouth


I have been staring at this blank page for a day now. Surely there is some wit and or wisdom to comfort you. It really is like putting one foot in front of the other...and soon you'll be walking through the door. Sorry I am quoting some Christmas cartoon now. How pathetic is that?

These past few days have been blue ones but I did realize that I am surviving, not really living and perhaps we can set our sights on that.

They would want us to live and love I know that, but the question is how? I suppose we can go through the motions; find joy where we can. And know that we grow each day, one into the next and want to be happy and will, with time.

P.S had a coupon for a specialty coffee whatever that is and I drink it with you though you are miles away...

Dec 09, 2010
nearly two years
by: Jules

Jen - today is my loves birthday - he would have been 62 - I wished him happy birthday, shed a few tears, - took a deep breath, and took my first step of the day.

I know we will survive this, somehow, we have a lot of support, and we still have the love we had from our sweethearts.

So - make the holiday season as good as you can with your children - know that this is what he would want.

One step - one breath
take care

Dec 09, 2010
two years
by: Anonymous

Hi Jen,

I wish you well as you face this second anniversary.
Enjoy London with your girls.

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