Need advice, help on the loss of my mom.

by Debbie O
(Willow Grove, PA)

My mom passed away suddenly on May 12th, 2011. I was on the phone with her as she lay dying. She was at home in bed thinking she was just having an "off" day. I live almost an hour away and couldn't get to her in time. She was 81 but everyone swore she was so much younger. She had been suffering due to double knee replacement surgery a year earlier but we never expected or thought she would die. I heard her take her last breath of life and can't get it out of my head. It' a month today and I don't know how to go on without her. I loved her more than she ever knew. I'm devastated and heartbroken as only others who have walked this road could know. What is life without our mom's? I misss her more with each moment and I"m struggling to cope in everyday life. I appreciate any help anyone kindly offers.