need to keep going for myself and my 9 year old
My wife made me leave after almost 22 years together. She said she just wanted me to leave. we got married when we were 18. We have a 21 year old son living separately and an 9 year old daughter.
It all happened after I lost my high paying job last year. I really did not see her forcing me to leave. I had hard time recuperating and looking for a new job. I tried to stay, asked to go to therapy. She made up her mind. I was hesitant to move out for 5 months. I moved out and rented an apartment. It is all very sad. The 9-year old lives with me and with my wife part of the week. We try to alternate. After moving out I lost another job. I found a new one quickly. I developed lots of anxiety and sadness over this and I also became very unfocussed and simply sloppy. I had to go see a counselor. Sometimes I think the sadness and pain are always going to be there.
I have many fears since I am not in control of finances.
I need to stay in shape but i do not always have energy to do it.
My wife has stayed in the house. The paperwork is slow to start since I am in a poor shape to start it and she does not even care because she controls the family finances(still joint account) and she lives in the family home. My self confidence has taken a deep dive ...it is recovering quite slowly. The longer it takes to file for divorce the more frustration it brings me..day by day
My daughter finds her dad tired and not as energetic as he used to be.
i am even hesitant to hire a lawyer..it has been 5months after separation. I still miss my ex and my house..