Need to vent....
by Just a Guest
I need to vent, I think I'm going crazy or at least have some sort of dissociative disorder.
I'm in my forty's. In a two year (starting four years ago) time frame I had a son in combat in the middle east, got divorced (my choice), moved three times, changed jobs twice, had both parents die three days apart, and quit smoking.
I have a really good job, a beautiful, caring, supportive fiance, and live in a nice house. I went through a depressive episode right after I quit smoking. Now there is no more sadness, it's been replaced by anger, but I think of death often...Not going to off myself but I find that I constantly think about death.
For the last few months it seems like I'm living someone else's life. It's like watching a movie. I'm wondering how I got here....it seems like a dream. It's as if I'm at the movies waiting for the next scene but it hasn't been written yet and I'm just waiting around to see what happens. I feel like I've leaped from another universe and have memories from a previous life but everything is fuzzy.
This sound familiar to anyone and if so, how did you overcome it?