Nephew died unexpectedly in December and brother, also unexpectedly in January.
To say I was shocked to learn of the death of my 40 year old nephew during minor surgery is a total understatement. Nobody in the family even knew he was having the procedure done. Apparently his heart just stopped. It was a very difficult time as I had just moved from Vancouver to Toronto two weeks earlier. My nephew was in U.K where I come from. The grief for his parents and the whole family was pretty unbearable.
On top of this just a month later I got the news that my brother had had a stroke and died.
Hard to know what I was feeling anymore by that point. It still all seems so very unreal. It seems to have brought death so close to me, particularly as now my older brother seems on the verge of dying. This will be the last of my natal family.
I have a husband here with me in Toronto but other than that i know nobody. I am depressed so much of the time and life has lost all it's joy.