(Alberta, Canada )
I'm currently separated 5 weeks from my husband. He lost his job a month ago due to failing a drug test. Just 3 months prior he had been in treatment and I stayed and provided emotional support.
I was devastated to learn he was using again and at the loss of his job. We didn't speak for 4 days. then one day I came home to find his wedding ring on the counter and a empty bottle of vodka.
I was sick with pneumonia at the time so I didn't freak out I was so ill. The next day I drove my kids to school and on my way home I met him driving in. He looked so scared. I knew he likely went to get drugs. And I felt that he may have been with another woman as I found receipt for dinner the night before. I was so angry I broke stuff and scratched his car. I told him to get out.
He made up a Facebook account and was trying to add all my friends, I blocked him and changed my number. We hadn't spoke. He professed his love for me through a friend.
9 days later he posts a picture of him and his new girlfriend kissing in our fifth wheel trailer. It felt like a kick in the stomach. His relationship status changed to "in a relationship".
I was so hurt. I stood by him during his cocaine addiction and did everything I could to keep him happy. Yes I kicked him out because I felt I couldn't take anymore lies and cheating. He had a secret life I wasn't part of. Now he won't help with any bills, I do have a job but not enough to keep up the lifestyle we were accustomed to. He's cheated several times in person and online.
My self esteem is crap. I have 2 autistic children that I love but drive me crazy. Yet he's moving on and enjoying his time. God I don't know how to feel.