Nick & deb
by Nick levene
My wife deb and I didn't ask for much we were happy you know, then on July 1st she rang me saying she was coming home from work early because she had a bad leg and couldn't put her weight on it. I was at work on my last day at my job and I said I will come home to look after her she said no say bye to your friends. The next day was worse and she had a fever so I took her to the hospital.
They were baffled for about 3 hours then they diagnosed necrotising fasciitus the flesh eating bug. She went for an operation and her last words were I'm up for this look at me I love you see you later ok?
She went to Icu and despite the doctors saying all could go ok she died in my arms 2 hours later at 5am Sunday July 3rd. We have a 5 1/2 year old daughter Samantha who has been great. Me I'm lonely lost tired of being lonely and lost not sure what's right anymore and the pain is unbearable. I've looked at afterlife books to convince myself she's waiting but the pain is huge. What do I do how do I go on I know I have to but oh my lord how? My girl needs me but The best way to support Samantha is for me to be happy but how? Deb was 48 I'm 44 has anyone had this if so please help because I love deb so dearly my life feels empty.