No clue about anything

by Nancy
(USA)

Mom died 13 weeks ago today. I've never been 13 days without contact in some form w/my mother. It's just Dad & me now. Two strangers living in the same place. Well, I'm trying to stay in the garage apt down below the house to get some space but spending quite a bit of time in the house w/Dad.

Since Mom died, he's screamed & threatened & launched wild accusations & cussed like a sailor @ me. All the normal behavior he had w/Mom is being directed at me.

He wants to move in the widow of his ex-wife's husband because "they" won't let him live alone. He demands I sleep in the house w/him & leave my kittycats alone in the apt. except for brief visits & feedings.

And then there is the etched in stone law that we must go out somewhere every single day of every single week. Even if he should be eating that much food from fast food joints every single day (& his doctor long ago said that was NOT a good idea), going somewhere every single day w/him?? I'm not allowed to go back to school-we have no money for that, don't even bother trying to get any financial aid. And even a part-time job is forbidden because he has to have someone w/him 24/7 ideally.

Maybe I'd be able to handle this better if I was sleeping at all.