No grandpa, lonely childhood

by Pia
(London)

When I was 8 my grandpa died (mothers father), my mother took the loss hard and never talked to us (her children) about it, neither did my father. My 2 older brothers didn't talk about it either, at least not to me. With my grandpa gone I lost a very important source of given love.

As the years went on I've never gotten over his departure, I became secluded from my brothers (since I was the girl I couldn't play with them), my parents neglected my emotional needs and in the end I had a very lonely childhood.

I'm now 19 years old and I'm still in grieving, I don't think I'll ever get over neither the loss of my grandpa, nor my lonely childhood. It's quite hard not have felt as an important person to anyone as a child.
Each day I'm living, only for myself.