No matter how much I wish and want, you're never coming back...

by daddy's girl
(MHAFB)

It's plain and simple.
It's not fair.
I miss everything about you.
I just want to hear you say my name again, and tell me I'm your little girl.
I just want to hear you tell me you love me. I just want a hug, you gave the best hugs ever, and only you could give a proper bear hug...
I just want to hear that you're proud of me, and that when I make mistakes you're still there and you still love me.
I don't want to cry and hurt anymore.
You made our family perfect, and now you're not here with us.
My heart is broken, yet it seems to keep on breaking somehow, like as long as your gone, my heart is still dying...
It hurts without you, it always hurts, and it's going to continue to hurt.
I wish I could hear your voice; I don't want to forget, how could I?
I wish I could have that hug now... I would never let go. I would never let go daddy.
I love you...

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Sep 02, 2010
CJ,
by: daddys little girl

Thank you for sharing your story, it made me cry. I know what you mean fully. It's sept now, which means Christmas is even closer, before that will be my birthday in November. It'll be my first birthday without him and I'm scared. I'm not coming home for Christmas either because I've grown to have more hate than happiness for that time of year. I know I'm not alone when I hear stories from other people on here about how they lost their dad too. I thank you everyone for your support and wish you strength as well. God bless,
KH

Jul 28, 2010
A Daddy's little girl too
by: CJ

My daddy passed away in October 2009. Your words say what I think and wish everyday since. He was 86. I am so grateful for the years I had with him, but it wasn't enough. I knew someday that day would come, just because it is the natural order of life. But that doesn't make it any better.

He was my best friend, my rock, my mentor in life, he was everything to me. My birthday was in December, that was probably my lowest low. I had to call a doctor for something to help. I cried the night before my birthday, cried in my sleep, woke up crying, called in to work, I could not stop. The thought of my birthday coming and going and that there was one phone call I would not be getting this year. I sometimes feel there must be something wrong with me.

July has been a tough month. It started with the 4th of July and hasn't stopped. We had so many fun summers at the lake and the 4th was always a big weekend. He has just been on my mind almost constantly. I know the anniversary of his death will be here all too soon and it scares me.

I have rambled far too much, it's just your words touched me. I am crying as I type. If only...I could have one more hug, one more kiss, one more "I love you so much" "I'm so proud of you" "Everything will be alright"...? would it be enough? No, it wouldn't, I would just want more. I miss him so much, I try to focus on being the strong person he would want me to be. I know he would not want me to be hurting so much.

I tell myself he is always with me, he is with me in my sister, my brother and mother. He with me in my kids and the grandkids. He is with me in everything I do and think, everywhere I look something reminds me of him. He knitted into my inner being.

Your daddy is knitted into you and he is with you everyday, just look into your heart and remember all the fine memories. He is right there. God Bless You and may peace find you. Thank you for listening to me.

Jul 22, 2010
So true
by: Elise

Your words are so true.... I feel them too!! If only we could wish for just another minute with our Dads.... just to hold them one last time!

Thank you for these words.

Jul 21, 2010
I am with you always
by: POP

It doesn't matter where you go or who you become, I will always love you and stand beside you waiting for you with the biggest Hello Hug You've Ever Had! You're my girl, my sweet lovely child and I will always save a spot in my heart for you to find and crawl into....I will protect and guide you all your life. I will be your compass and your inspiration .... I will be your courage and your light.

Don't distress and think I'm not there - I am! I'm with you whispering this into your ear - right now and you can hear me.

This is our little secret. Keep an eye out for my signs and I will surprise you on every important day of your life. I promise - I won't miss a thing!

I love you. I love you. I love you - My little one.

Jul 21, 2010
I am here...
by: Hope

I know that I am a poor substitute for what you have lost. But, know that I am proud of you every minute of every day. I wish I could reach you and give you a hug for him. I see your dad in B's eyes each day and you are your daddy's daughter, the best of him. What I loved in him I see in you now, You and Fr. I wish with all my heart that I could ease your pain. HH

Jul 21, 2010
Loss of Father
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for the loss of your father. I lost my father when I was 26 so I know your grief. The pain will always be there, it just does not consume you after a while. I lost my 27 year old son in May of this year and have returned to the stage of grief where you are now. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Jul 21, 2010
Need long arms
by: HH

Need long arms to reach you. I will give my best bear hug. I want to stop your pain, make it better. I will Love you, I will be Proud of you as I aways was and am. I miss him too and would give anything for one of his hugs. He was a great hugger. When he put his arms around you you knew, just knew that he loved you soooo much there and then. It was not a hug pat pat pat thing. It was an all engulfing I Love You Hug.
The doorbell continues to ring in my times of grief and despair. He's watching over us all and that, is his hug. HH

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