No more Christmas with the Family in Houston.
(San antonio TX)
The Grandparents home in League City, near Houston was the place we all met up for the Holidays. Grandfather died in '89 but Grandmother survived there until 2010. The last time I saw her was her birthday in 2009. At that point she was already in a care facility but the house had not sold yet which we did go inside to look around. I grabbed a few things I thought she would want me to have and with I'd taken more as most of it just got sold off in the estate sale. I guess I KNEW it was going to be the last time I saw her but what I did not think about is the fact that our "base camp" that had always been there was gone. I google mapped her house the other day as I an in San Antonio and just wanted to see it again. I guess it just happened to be for sale and the page featured interior pictures of her home. It was all different. I just cried. The old '70s feel was replaced with something totally different.
It's been 5 years since I've been there and 4 since she passed. I've never been to a funeral. I just can't do it. When my parents die, I suppose I will have to then. I remember back to what a hassle it was to have to drive all the way over there for Christmas. The load up the drive. Now if I could have one more day I would walk there to see her. This year will be the 26th year without Granddaddy, and 5 years since Grandmothers passing. I'm an only child and recently had an ear injury that caused ringing in my ears that has really done a mind job on me about all of this.
We will never spend another Holiday in the house again. try to deal with it, but am very sad. Life is short. Cherish your family. One day there will just be an empty space.