No No No don't be true

by steffy
(daytona beach FL)

Its been 5 months since they killed my husband. 5 months since they took his life. He was 21 years old, my high school sweet heart my soul mate. We were expecting our first child. I was 7 months pregnant when he was killed. I feel so sad and lonely. Raising my first child without the man I love. The pain is too much some days I was to drop dead. I have codys son now and need to be here but this hurts so bad. I miss him. I want him and I still need him. In florida this week, first trip with out him and all I want is to disappear. So hard to breathe without you baby. Why did this happen???

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Jun 26, 2012
So sorry
by: Anonymous

I lost my husband of seven yrs to gun never gets better you just learn to live with it...he died Oct 27th three days before my does go on...but it will never be the same...may God bless you and your son.

Jun 25, 2012
NO NO NO it can't be true.
by: Doreen England U.K.

Steffy, I am so sorry for your loss of your husband. What a cruel and horrible experience for you to go through at such a young age. My heart aches for you having to raise your son all by yourself, without a dad. You not only have the loss of your husband but the loss of support in raising your son. The loss of a life together.
I hope that you have a supportive family that will pull you through the difficult days ahead and also the years to follow without the love of your life. Grief of this nature when one is so young is so very difficult to bear. You will be not only in a state of shock but disbelief that this has happened and when will your nightmare end. Your story puts mine in perspective as I was angry that my husband of 44years died of cancer and had to leave this world when he should have retired and us enjoying life together. Now I have to do it alone. Steve was 65yrs. I was always aware through Steve's cancer that it took 40yrs. to develop and this alone was a lifetime spent with him. Whilst I didn't get more years with him I was still thankfull for the years I had even though Steve was working long hours all over the world and we didn't get the quality of time we needed. But we still had time. I am sorry you didn't have time. Another loss for you to grieve. Healing will take a long long time Steffy. You must face this one day at a time and know you are not ALONE. We all feel your pain though we can't touch your life personally to say so. I wish for you Peace, and a soft soft journey through your grief. I Pray your son will grow up to be just like his daddy and that you will always have a piece of your husband to hold you up through your son. Best wishes

Jun 25, 2012
Sadly True
by: Anonymous

Steffy, we have all reached out and tried to help you. Please seek professional counseling. Your son needs his mother.

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