No Time Is The Right Time

by Nancy
(Columbia, CT USA)

My dad lived to be 80 which in itself was wonderful and I am grateful. He has had many illnesses over the past 15-20 years including a bad heart. But even with his illnesses he always lived life actively and to the fullest. On April 2nd they found a couple of spots on his liver that they wanted checked out. He didn't get in to the Oncologist until April 23rd, don't know what difference getting in sooner would have made, but I wish he had gotten in sooner.

They decided to do blood work and a ct scan on April 26th and 27th. Well on Thursday April 29th they confirmed he did have liver cancer with 6 months to live give or take. My dad lived in AZ during the winter months and CT during the summer months. I flew to AZ on Friday and thank god I did. My dad passed away on Sunday, May 2nd, so much for 6 months, it was 3 DAYS!

I know in my heart the way my dad lived and died would be exactly what he would want but I am angry. I did not even realize until Saturday the 1st of May that he really was going to die. He never got to really communicate with us those last couple of days. He was such a big part of our life. Each day I go to work and do what I need to do but I can't seem to fill this hole in my heart. I miss you dad and I love you!!! I know why I cry I am not crying for you but for me!!!