(Columbus, GA, USA)
I question each day why am I living. I have nothing to live for. My Momma was my everything and now that she is gone I have no one. I am all alone. I lost my Momma 9 October 2011 and I still cry everyday. I miss everything about her; her smile, her laughter, her beautiful face, her presence, just everything. I have no family, no friends. The cemetary owner told me on yesterday it was time for me to be at peace because it has been over a year. I told him I don't know how to be a peace. He suggested I see a psychistrist I told him I do with no help. He then suggested finding an online grieving site. So here I am. My Momma had dementia but I am being accused of killing her. I took care of my Momma for about 3 years and to lose her and be accused of killing her is the worst in my 45 years on this earth. I hate my life. Yes I am depressed, lonely, lost, hurt, you name it, I'm it. I need help desperately. I don't know what to do with my life. I have no earthly idea how to be at peace, move on, or nothing. I miss her more now than a few days, weeks, or months ago. What do I do to keep going and get out of this state I'm in? I am at the lowest point in my life and going forward is the most difficult. Please help somebody...I always prayed and asked God to not take my Momma before I get married and have my own family. I am 45, not married, and no children. Everybody against me. What a life???